~Behind his smile is a hurting heart, behind his laugh he is falling apart~

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      "Kookie... everything... is okay?" the pale woman manage to asks the curvy haired-boy, and he nods instantly with a smile on his face- even if it is again just a fake one. 

    No, nothing is good. He was fired. His boss said he could no longer get over that he was missed again yesterday. Even though Hoseok explained the situation to him, even though he told him that Jungkook was in the hospital yesterday, the man did not say anything else, but he left. Not before to demands Jungkook to left as well. So he lost his work place. And if that hadn't already been too bad for him, his drawing teacher told him he was in danger of being left out from his class, because he had also been missing far too many times. So yeah, nothing is good. But he can not tell his mother all of these.

      "Of course, mom. Everything is fine. You don't have to worry." he lies then touch her hand softly. "You should get some rest, you must to be tired." he says after then refrains himself from crying because hell, his mother looks even worse than last time when he saw her.

     "Yeah, I am... I am a little tired, but I want to... see your beautiful face awhile." she reply and Jungkook's heart bows in pain.

      "I will be here when you wake up. So you can get some sleep." he assures her and the woman approves, then she struggles to smile. 

      "I am so lucky to have a son like you." she whispers then close her eyes, while Jungkook tries his best to be as strong as he can, at least until he will be out from this room.

     When he realizes that the woman is already asleep, he gets up from his chair and kisses her forehead softly, then subtly leaves the room. His mother's doctor told him that she was waiting for him in the office because there was something to talk to him about. And that scares him. Because after seeing his mother's condition, there can be nothing good. But still he hopes ...

     "Can I come in, Mr. Kim?" the boy with the curly hair asks, after knocking subtly on the cabinet door.

     "Yeah, come in, Jungkook."  the man behind the door immediately answers and the boy enters in the cabinet.

     "Umm... something happened?" the curvy haired-boy asks, feeling his hands sweaty already. 

    The man with the badge on his name, Jin, nods, then takes a deep breath. Even if he really loves his job, he hates to do something though. To give bad news to relatives of some patients. Even to this day, he has not been able to get used to the sad faces and tears of his dear patients or of their relatives. But he has to do that too.

     "Take a sit, Jungkook. We must to talk." Jin suggests then the younger one sits on a chair. 

      "It is... something really bad?" he manage to ask even if he already knows the answer. 

     The doctor sighs and then puts the glasses on his nose better. 

      "We talked about this a few times before. It's about your mother's discharge, Jungkook. "Jin explains and the other only looks blankly, swallowing in sec.

     "And I already told you that I do not agree. I pay for all the expenses, so this should not be a problem." the younger one reply in a serious voice, trying to look as relaxed as possible.

     The doctor takes his glasses and places them on the desk in front of him, then looks at the boy with compassionate in the eyes. He knows. He knows how much pain it must be for him.

     "We tried everything, Jungkook. Operations, rays, everything. But in vain, the disease has advanced far too far. There's nothing we can do and you know that." he reply then the bunny boy looks at him with tears in his own doll eyes.

    "Then what do you want to do? Do you want to discharge her? To get her out from the appliances? For what? She will die in torment, you know that, right?" he asks in a sad tone, and Jin closes his eyes for a few seconds.

    "You must to understand that we have other patients with the same disease, kid. Other patients who can really survive. " the doctor says in a weak tone, and the boy stands up, looking at him with other tears at the works.

    "But you must to understand that I have just a mother too!" the younger one raise his voice, feeling how everything that happened today overwhelms him.

    It's not the first time his mother's doctor has told her that. It's not the first time she's confirmed that her mother doesn't have much chance of survival. But still, he's still trying to fight.

     "Believe me, I understand how hard it must be for you, but- "

      "You really understand?" Jungkook cuts his reply and Jin looks at the floor. "Did you see your mother struggling for her own life every day? Do you know how it feels when your mother struggles to breathe every moment?" he raise again his voice, then looks at the doctor. "Do you know how it feels when you are able to give anything to be the one who dies, but to not watch as the only person you love disappears, without never returning back to you? "

    He knows. He knows it's wrong to raise his voice. He knows it's disrespectful to talk to the elderly in this way, but at the moment he can't think. He only knows that anger, pain, despair is far too great.

     "I'm sorry, but the hospital owners said your mother has to leave by next week. " Jin manage to reply, while Jungkook is left without any other word, feeling how his world is at the edge to crack.

    Do you know the feeling that no matter how hard you try, no matter much you struggle , sometimes it's not enough and you can't reach your goal? Or would it not matter how many hours you cried, screamed or struggled with your own pain, it would never go away? Yeah, it is kinda sucks, right?

    Then what would be your purpose in living, if everything you love disappears right in front of you? Why would you smile if the reason for your happiness slips through your fingers? Maybe the essence is really a game, but the real prize is not life, but death.

***

    "Dad, why the angel was not at the restaurant? I really wanted to see him!"  Yoonhyo says then pouts, and Taehyung smiles a little.

    "Maybe he wanted more rest. We will go tomorrow again, fine?" he asks and the little one nods with a smile on his face. "Now go and wash your teeth then sleep, it is pretty late, tiger."

     "Tomorrow we have to see him! Last time when I saw him he was sick. I hope he is better now." the younger one reply and his father ruffles his hair. 

    "For sure he is alright. Now go and wash your teeth." he repeats again, then Yoonhyo starts running on the stairs.

     He doesn't understand why Jungkook wasn't at the restaurant today. Yesterday they agreed to see each other at the restaurant, where Jungkook would have given him and Yoonhyo a free meal. It's not about free food, damn it, he is fucking rich! But he just doesn't understand why the bunny boy didn't let him know he wasn't coming tonight.

    "He probably wanted to sleep a little longer. " he says after and then rolls his eyes.

    He should not wonder what Junkook is doing. He has nothing to do with him, but he can't lie and say he doesn't worry a little about him. Especially after he found out that the bunny boy is alone. What if he fainted again? Maybe he should have asked Hoseok if everything was okay.

     "He is fine. Jesus, what is wrong with me?" he whispers to himself, then takes a deep breath. 

     He doesn't understand why he feels something is wrong. But it's probably nothing. 

     He then sits on the couch and closes his eyes for a few seconds. It's past ten at night and he'd be lying if he said he is not damn tired. But he can't just fall asleep, he must first to changes his clothes. A suit is not so comfortable, especially if you want to sleep.

     He didn't even solve it the problem with finding a nanny for Yoonhyo. After the boy finished the classes today, he had to bring him to work so he could keep an eye on him. He simply cannot find a woman suitable or trustworthy enough to take care of his son.

     His thoughts are set aside when the phone from his pocket rings. He mumbles something and then pulls it out hard, hoping it won't be his brother or something to do with work. By the way, he will definitely throw the phone in this case. To his amazement it is neither Namjoon nor Yoongi, but Jungkook. Is Jungkook calling him? Why? What happened?

     He sits better on the couch and then answers. He frowns as soon as he hears some loud noise on the other side of the call.

     "Jungkook? Hello?" he asks, trying to understand if the bunny boy really wanted to call him, or it was by mistake.

     "Tae? You... there?" the same warm voice makes Taehyung to smile a little, then he nods, even if nobody can see him.

      "Yeah, I am here. Something happened, Jungkook?" he asks then a few seconds waits for the bunny boy's answer.

        "I... ăăm... wanted to talk with someone, and you was the first one on my agenda." he reply then he starts to giggles, while the CEO frowns.

     He sounds drunk.

       "Where are you? Are you home? " Taehyung asks then gets up from the sofa, waiting for an reply. 

      "Neah, home not warm. The bar still cold, but the alcohol... is ămm... hot!" the curvy haired-boy gets confused in his own words, and the other has already confirmed his suspicion.

    Jungkook is drunk. He is fucking drunk.

      "Please tell me where are you. I'll come get you." the CEO says then he hears how the younger one giggles.

      "I... ămm... I do not... go to home. I want to... drink more today." he manages to reply, and the older one feels like he is about to lose his minds.

    How should he knows where Jungkook is, if the boy can't even form a sentence? Where should this bar be?

     "Jungkook, listen to me. Tell me the name of the bar, I will go there as fast as I can." he says then he close the house, knowing that Yoonhyo must already be asleep.

     He shouldn't leave him alone, but he has no choice now. He needs to find the bunny boy until he's in trouble.

     "Woah, you are kinda pretty, what is your name, baby boy?" a thick voice is heard on the other side of the call, and Taehyung freezes instantly.

     "Jungkook?" he calls his name, gulping hardly. 

      "Let... let me go, I do not... know you." Jungkook's voice is heard later and Taehyung can say that he is scared.

      "Who-"

     He wants to say something at his turn, but the call ends. The man rings again, but in vain. The call is rejected. Who the hell was that man? What did he want from Jungkook? Why did he tell him to let him go?

      "Fuck!" he swears and then gets in the car, then starts the car in a hurry.

    He tries to call him again, but the bunny boy doesn't answers. He has no idea where he's going to go, buthe needs to get to Jungkook somehow. And as soon as possible. Because he can swear ... the other boy is not safe. .

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Hello angels! A new chapter even if I posted today') I kinda like this chapter idk why:)))

I wait for your opinions and see u at the next one!

  Please, I want his waist 😭😭😭