Neiyat's POV:

My heart was thumping loudly as I stood infront of the door. The door which I was never hesitant to barge into earlier today looked like an entry to a lion's cave.

He is a MARRIED man!!!
Someone else's Husband!!!
And I'm going to look into the arrangements for his wedding night with his newly wedded wife.
Opening needs courage!!! Do you have it in you Neiyat!!!
Never imagined that the 100th couple would be this complicated to handle!!!
Closing my eyes tightly one last time I stepped into the room.

The room was lit up with candles, white and blue orchids. I felt my throat going dry. I slowly took a step ahead and noticed a huge photograph of Aahir and Sanchi hung on the all opposite to the bed.

The photograph screamed into my face that they are married now!!!

My eyes welled up but I quickly wiped my tears and looked around. I was only doing a formality of looking into the room because honestly I didn't have the strength to bother looking around. I noticed the balcony door was left open so I quickly closed the same when I heard the knob click and his strong fragrance hit my nose and I heard him.
'Let me know the results of echo and TMT. Infact...just send me the reports. I'll tell you if we have to go for an angiogram'

I leaned a little towards the wall as I heard his voice. He dropped the call and the next minute our eyes met.

There were no exchange of words. The silence was killing me which however was broken when I heard...
'Riri...god I'm so tired....uffff...just help me with this na' saying she was turning around asking Aahir to unveil her hair bun and all of a sudden it was awkward!!! Embarassing!!!

I wanted to burry myself 6 ft underground. I didn't want to see this. I can't see this.

'Ex.... excuse me....ummm...I....I.... came here to...I just....I...ummm...the dec... decorations...that....I....' I tried to gather words when I heard Sanchi...

'Came to decorate our room for the wedding night!!! Hummmm nice!!! You did a pretty nice job Neiyat!!! Thanks... now bye!!!' Sanchi said and my eyes were stuck on the man she owned now!!!

Aahir!!!

He stood there looking into my eyes without even blinking. There was no emotions on his face.

I nodded and slowly began walking beside them when I heard Sanchi again...
'Neiyat!!! Won't you congratulate us ..after all now we are officially Mr and Mrs Sehgal!!!' she said clutching onto Aahir's bicep and I felt like someone poked a hundred pins in my chest.

'Con....con .. congratulations!' I whispered with a lot of difficulty and began rushing towards the door when I heard Aahir's voice!!!

'Neiyat!!!' he said firmly and I felt goosebumps all over my body. His affect on me...Wooow!!!

I turned around and looked at him with my eyes filled with fresh tears when he said...

'Please close the door!!!' and it felt like someone slapped really hard on my face.

His eyes kept looking sharp into mine and I couldn't move. For the first time I didn't want this door to close. On the other side of that door my cousin and my love would touch each other, feel each other, sleep and embrace each other tonight!!! The feeling was terrible. But before I could react Sanchi closed the door with a thud!!!

And I felt like my world collapsed.
She was inside with the man I love!!!
They are married!!!
I felt everything going to a standstill. I began walking up the terrace. My chest felt heavy. The thought of just them being in each other's arms destroyed me. I wanted to breathe. It was choking me.

I went back to Kapoor mansion...I needed space!!! I wanted fresh air!!! I ran up the terrace and began gasping for air. Tears kept rolling down from my eyes nonstop.

I fisted my hands and held the reeling of the terrace tightly but nothing helped.
I wanted to let it out... everything...
I began crying loudly!!! And I screamed on the top of my voice!!!

My anger...my frustrations... everything was been let out...a wall within was broken...

I cried in pain...

'I lost him!!! I let him go!!! How I wish I could revert everything!!! Time... situation...

That evening in Goa...when he kissed me...
When he asked me to say it out!!
But I couldn't!!!'

I slammed my hand into the wall and screamed...

'Why couldn't you say it to him Neiyat!!! Why couldn't you just confess it to him!!!
Was it so hard???
Yes maybe!!!

Harder than going through this pain???
No!!!

No!!! Why on earth did I let him go
...

I broke down one last time letting it out...

And then I felt a warm hug and I feel my parents holding onto me....

'Ma.... Dad....I.....I cccccan't ta....take it' and then I feel the warmth of my mother's chest and slowly I feel my father caressing my head.

'Why are you crying baby... isn't this what you wanted' dad asked and I shot a teary eyed look at my father and shouted...

'No....No Dad....no....I did NOT WANT THIS!!! No I did NOT!!! Yes! I couldn't express it but is words alone the ultimate expression to emotions Dad...my tears... don't they say it??? My broken voice...my lifeless self!!! Can't you see it dad...yes i couldn't gather the guts to tell him but it doesn't mean I feel anything less for him!!! I may never have expressed it with words but I also have a heart dad...I may not have been able to tell it to him like how you and mom tell each other every single day but that doesn't mean my feelings are any less powerful!!! It hurts to see the love of your life with someone else in his bedroom dad!!!!
I'm not that strong enough!!!
I'm not!!!' I screamed and hid my face in my mother's chest.

When I heard...
'Your what??? Did I hear it right or do i need some ear cleansing bud Neiv!!!' and then I see Malu aunty standing next to dad.

I didn't want to turn around.

'Did she say Love???' Malu aunty asked my dad in a mocking tone and I was irked. But I didn't respond and continued hugging my mother.

'Why is it so shocking Malu...can't she fa in love' Dad asked and Malu aunty chuckled saying...

'But isn't Aahir the sober kind...wait a minute what was that statement which she kept saying Lavanya???' she asked Luv and then I heard Luv saying...

'Aahir is not my type!!! Yeah!!! I've like heard that a hundred times mom!!! But hey why are you discussing it...it's over now!!! Aahir is happily married to Sanchi!!! Didn't you see that guy couldn't wait for his first night!!! Infact Sanchi told me they are going to Mauritius for a honeymoon!!!

'No...no London!!! Aahir wanted to visit the London bridge ..he said he wants to have a romantic kiss with the love of his life there' added Malu aunty!!!

'You both are wrong it's Paris!!! I just heard Aaru booking the honeymoon tickets for the couple next week!!!' and this time it was my dad!!!

Are they all forgetting that I'm crying upon my broken heart here...

But then cherry on top I hear...
'Its a Europe trip!!! Almost a month longer!!! Aaru desperately wants her son to finally do all the dating, romance, kis'

And I shouted this time...

'Mummmma...stop!!! You...all infact all of you...Stop!!! Stop!!! Stoppp!!!' I screamed.

'But why? It's all over so just get over it!!!' I hear Malu aunty and I'm annoyed and pissed off with her cool attitude...

'Aunty enough!!! It's over officially maybe but for me it's never over!!! He will stay here...in my heart...you know why???

Because I love him!!!
I....I love him!!!
I love Aahir!!!
It's just that I couldn't say it to him!!!

Wooow...I love him!!!
See ...I said it...
So easily
..it's just that infront of him my tongue gets tied!!! I coulnt express it and then i did something stupid and bizzare...
I kidnapped him...' I said and looked at my father who was looking at me with a deadpan expression.

'Yes Dad!!! I broke his heart first, then I broke his trust too!!! I lost everything!
Lavanya...you guys used to call me stingy na...yes ..you are right...I even turned out to be stingy in returning love to someone who have it all to me!!!

I'm a looser Mumma...I ran behind something imaginary and lost what I had...and now I have nothing!!!
It's all empty!!!
Now I want to tell him!!!
But he's not here!!!

He's gone!!!
And I'm all alone...all alone!!! I lost my chance with him...I lost my chance' saying I fall on my knees and burst out into tears.
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'And what if I say you still have a chance!'

I hear a voice and then I feel my heart thumping louder....