AN: This is normal text of Chapter 32. ❤️

2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I'm so happy that you've found Jenny and you've kept your promise to your grandpa. I know he must be so proud of you. I'm so proud of you too. Their love story is so sad, and Jenny has suffered so much. I'm glad you've found her, and you can visit her when you have time. She sounds awfully lonely with no family at all. Have I told you how amazing you are? And you're all mine. I love you. ❤︎

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2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

Today was the first day of school. I know I'll tell you about all that happened again in my email and probably when we Skype on Friday night. But I feel like telling you here too because in my email I'm not going to tell you how much I really miss you. I'm not going to tell you how I wish we could have lunch together. I know, you're in a different faculty and we would have to spend half our lunchtime just walking to and back across the campus, but I would still have done it. And I know you would have too, that is, if only you were here. At least sometimes.

It's been almost two months since you've left. Time feels like it's crawling. Minutes feel like hours, hours feel like days, and days feel like years. How are we supposed to do this for two years? Do you miss me as much as I miss you?  ❤︎

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2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I guess Halloween really is a big thing in the US. By the way, I didn't tell you on Skype, but you looked good in the doctor costume even though it belongs to Payel. I'm sorry that I got upset over that group picture. It's just that you seem to be having so much fun without me, and sometimes I'm scared that you're having so much fun that you'll forget about me. I know you keep telling me that that won't happen but I can't help it. I just miss you so much.

Today, I went to the orphanage to visit the kids. There's a new foreign volunteer named Alex. He only speaks English and he's been trying to teach the kids English too. They seem to really like him. So does Miss Eva. I think she likes him. I caught them flirting. The kids really miss you and asked to see some of your latest pictures. So I showed them your Halloween pictures. Josie squealed seeing you in your doctor costume. Then Alex explained what Halloween is to the kids, and we threw a mini Halloween party even though Halloween is over. ❤︎

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2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I know I already told you that I'm really worried about my final score in Comm 201 for this semester, and you have already told me that it'll all be fine but I'm seriously scared. If I don't pass it, then I'm going to have to retake it again next fall semester, and I can't take Comm 202 in the winter or Comm 203 in the spring. I might even have to stay back a year, and I don't want to be another year behind you. ☹︎

Hey, I hope you buy a jacket soon. It doesn't have to be an expensive one. Just a simple one will do. I hate that I have to keep nagging you because I don't want you to be annoyed with me. But I don't want you to get sick either. I'm starting to feel like my mother. I had checked, and the weather in NY is getting colder by the day. I really don't think a sweatshirt is going to cut it any longer. Even Jenny has told you many times that you need to put on a jacket. And you run all those errands for work. Please get a jacket. If you don't, I'll send one to you. ❤︎

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2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

Wow! I just saw the news about the record snowstorm in NY. I know you like snow, but that seems like really a lot. Cars couldn't even move in that. I hope you stay safe. I wish I could be there to see the snow with you. I wish I could see your face seeing snow for the first time. My first time seeing snow was magical. Our family went to Hokkaido, Japan for a family vacation when I was twelve. We went to a snow festival there. We had a lot of fun. Maybe someday we can go there together. Or better yet, we can go to Switzerland together. We can learn to ski together. ❤︎

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2013/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I'm really sad too. I hated seeing you cry today. You made me cry too. I really do want you to come home for Christmas break but your mom is right. It's not worth it for really just four days to spend all your hard earned money. You'll just suffer terrible jet lag both ways. You'll probably end up sleeping most of it away. I hope summer will come sooner so you can come back for a full break. At least we'll be able to Skype everyday during your break. I love you and miss you so much.

In the midst of all the sadness, I had forgotten to mention that I ran into Miss Eva yesterday. She says she really misses you. I think I'm really going to go volunteer when I get my schedule worked out and probably during break since you won't be back. Miss Eva told me she knows a lot of your embarrassing stories that she can tell me. So I can't wait. ❤︎

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2014/02/14

Dear Kongpob,

Happy Valentine's Day! I know you're still asleep, but I'm going to say it here first. Thank you for the new limited edition Eustass "Captain" Kid, the latest copy of One Piece, and the bar of strawberry chocolate. All my friends were so confused when they saw Aim come to our faculty to give me these. They thought Aim was confessing to me, so I had to explain everything. So now all my friends know about us too. And I really love the model figure. He fits right in with my collection. You're the best! I love you so much. I only wished that we could have celebrated our first Valentine's Day together though. I never cared for this holiday until I've met you.

I also received three boxes of chocolates today but I didn't eat any of them. My friends ate them all. I swear. I also rejected one confession today. Krystal told me you're always nice when you reject people's confessions and nobody ever gets mad at you. So this time, I tried to be nicer by being honest instead of just saying no thanks. I told the girl nicely that I didn't find her attractive, but she still got mad at me! She even threw her box of cookies at me. It really sucks since we share two classes together. I guess I'll have to sit as far away as possible from her from now on. Anyway, there's still thirty minutes before our Skype time. I'm patiently waiting. I hope you'll like the scarf I had knit for you. My mom taught me how, and I had to do it secretly so Krystal wouldn't be able to tease me. I hope you'll receive it by today. I sent it through express mail. I love you!  ❤︎

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2014/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I'm excited to go to the beach with my friends for spring break, but I'll miss our Skyping. I know you said it's okay but that actually makes me feel like you don't miss me as much as I miss you. Anyway, Bright and Toota are bringing their girlfriend and boyfriend to come along. I'm low-key jealous of them but of course I'm not going to tell you this and make you feel bad. It's just that sometimes it doesn't feel like I have a boyfriend.

I'm not blaming you. I knew this when we started dating but I can't stop myself from feeling this way sometimes. I just miss our kisses and hugs so much. Do you miss our kisses? What about sex? You told me you can hear your roommates in the building sometimes. Does it bother you? Bright says it's normal to be horny all the time, but I think he's the only one who's horny all the time. Anyway, I just miss you too much. I really want to kiss you and hug you till you burst. ❤︎

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2014/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I HATE YOU! I'M NEVER TALKING TO YOU AGAIN! EVER! 

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2014/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I'm sorry I overreacted. I know it was all for school work and you guys stayed up all night for the project. But I don't like you staying over at someone else's place. You've made so many new friends now. I feel like your life is so exciting without me. Every week your new friends take you to different places. And Jamie is always lounging around in your room. I know she's just a friend and she has a girlfriend too, but do you two have to be so comfortable? I know she only borrowed your shirt because she didn't do her laundry in time. But I don't know how I feel about someone wearing my boyfriend's shirt. And do you have to help out Payel's dad even on the weekends? He's not even paying you. Why are you so nice? ❤︎

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2014/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

There's only one more month till summer break. I can't wait. I really can't wait for you to come back. I know I encouraged you to apply for that summer internship but would I be an awful boyfriend if I really don't want you to get selected? I know I'm being selfish so that's why I won't say anything to you. I don't want you to feel bad or stop you from achieving your goals. But you also said the chances of being selected are slim to none because there's only four spots for IBEX. So, I'm anxiously waiting for the results.

Also, I know I told you that you need to get a haircut so you don't have to tie your hair up because it looks ridiculous, but the truth is, I actually find it really hot. And I don't want you to walk around like that. So I'm not going to let you know. You shall find out when you get this diary. Then you can tie it up just for me to see. ❤︎

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2014/xx/xx

Dear Kongpob,

I'm sorry I had to cut our Skyping short. I needed to be alone for a while. I still can't believe you got selected for the internship, and it's with Johnson & Johnson too. My mom asked about your return during dinner, and even my dad says it's a great opportunity. He said it would look great on your resume when you look for a job. I think he's slowly warming up to you. I'm so proud of you. I really am but I also hate it. I've waited for so long. I just really want to see you already. Don't you want to come back to see me? I guess not since you looked so happy when you were telling me about this news. I know I'm not being fair. You've worked so hard and you deserve to be happy. I'm sorry. I'll get over it. I love you. ❤︎

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AN: This is for my sweet readers that use Google translate to read my stories. I'm sorry I didn't think about this. ❤️