Hey there! ❤️😍

Alright, before you move on below, I just want to inform you about my incoming absence.

First of all, I'm moving back to Prague for Christmas, so I'm not quite sure how much active I'll be here on Wattpad. And with that I wish you all Marry Christmas! ❤️😍 I really hope you all are going to enjoy it the same way I'm. And remember it's not about gifts. And if you ever feel alone, just know we all are here with you.

Second of all, I'm working on a small surprise for you guys.
(Ok, I'm busted. I've been working on it since this summer, but so many things always distracted me).
I hope I'll be able to deliver it until New Years Eve.
All fingers crossed!
Which means, I won't post any chapters until then. I'm sorry about that, but I need to push myself into it and stop thinking about other books 😂.

Third of all? Just go read this chapter. Enjoy ^.^
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"And here's Evan when he decided to eat whole jar of nuttella," my mum laughed proudly, showing Delirious photo of me as a baby covered in the chocolate.

I put my head on the table, my cheeks already burning in embarrassment. The only thing I didn't want to happened, and she did exactly that.

"He's cute," Delirious replied, and I just wanted to vanish.

"Wait, I have a photo of him playing with his wee wee for the first time. He thought he was like an elephant. Where did I..."

I quickly looked at her with terror in my eyes.

"No! Ok, that's enough. I'm pretty sure we don't want to see that," I quickly jumped in, hearing Delirious snicker.

"Alright then, but I swear I have it somewhere here," my mum mumbled, still looking through the box.

I exchanged a look with the man, begging him to stop this torture. I noticed he was having a good time, and I just wanted to die.

He doesn't need to see a photo of my wee wee. He saw it already!

"Here it is!" My mum yelled victoriously, and I whined loudly.

Please, no!

"I'm so sorry, ma'am, but I'll be on my way now. It was my pleasure to be here, honestly," Delirious said, standing up, and I silently exhaled.

"Oh, how sweet of you. You're welcome here any time, no need to say a word. I'm really glad Evan found such a confident and strong man as you're," my mum replied, as we were walking towards the door.

"Your son is more of a man than I could ever be," Delirious replied, and I smiled to myself.

"I hope so, he's my son after all. I hope to see you soon."

Both of them shook their hands, and I just silently watched as he left our house.

"Go after him! You didn't even say a goodbye," my mum quickly pushed me out of the door, closing it behind me.

I saw him unlocking his car, and I quickly ran towards him. This whole evening was one big embarrassment, but he was acting so professionally. He even avoided my mum's question about how many people he had had before me, or smoothly answered her question how did we met.

"Wait," I called out, dragging his attention.

"Goodnight kiss?" I whispered, when I spotted a sadness in his eyes for a few seconds, before he covered up with a smile.

What's going on?!

"Goodnight kiss."

He stepped towards me, softly pressing his lips against mines. I seriously enjoyed this side of him, even though I missed his rough side as well.

"Something's bothering you, I know it. What is it?" I asked in whisper, when he pulled away.

"Your mum is having her time of a life," he smiled, looking behind me amused.

"Delirious, answer me," I tried to get his answer once again.

"It's nothing, seriously. I still have that last business in my mind, that's all. I'll call you tomorrow, ok?" he caressed my cheeks, and I remembered what I wanted to tell him.

"I talked with Ohm, by the way. He wants to see me tomorrow," I said, hearing a silent growl coming from his side.

"I'm doing this only for you, but know that I'm not happy. I'll see you tomorrow then."

He stepped away from me, getting into his car. I watched as he disappeared behind the corner, slowly walking back into my house. I had a bad feeling about his behavior, but I also knew he had a lots of problems going on every day.

"He's dreamy!" My mum grinned at me the moment I stepped in.

"Photos? Really mum?" I rolled my eyes, when he showed me her phone.

"You two are so cute."

There was a photo of me and him kissing in front of my house a few moments ago.

"You could have warned me about today," I sighed, receiving a laughter.

"I could have, true, but you would have hide all the photos! Goodnight, sweetie," she kissed me on the forehead, walking away.

I went back to my room, straight to the bed. I swiped all the suspicions about Delirious' behavior, letting the dream world take over me.

During the school the next day, Bryce was acting like a bitch again. He was doing everything to make my day even worse than it already was, and I still didn't fully understood this whole situation.

My teacher kept an eye on me, curious and worried, and all I wished for was for this day to end. He said he would call me once he was down with some teacher's meeting. We had a one week holiday, which gave me perfect opportunity to be more with Delirious and to focus on school at the same time.

I walked out of the school, seeing Luke waiting for me. He smiled at me, having way more better mood than I.

"Hey," I greeted him.

"Move away."

I was pushed aside, seeing Bryce and his friends walking by. Noticing Luke's movement, I quickly stopped him, seeing so much anger in his eyes.

"Let them go," I whispered, watching Dereck turning around and flipping me off.

What is wrong with you Bryce?

"Are you alright?" He asked me, checking if I was ok.

"Yeah, fine. Delirious send you?" I smiled, when he nod.

"He's stuck in the work, so I can take care of you. Up for a ride on this long and hard rock-" I quickly interrupted him.

"Car. I'll get into your car."

"That was what I wanted to say before you rudely interrupted," he grinned at me, opening a passenger door for me.

We reached Delirious' house, and I was led into the kitchen. Checking my phone, I waited for Ohm's call.

"Alright! Are you ready?" He asked me, sitting next to me.

"Ready for what?"

"I prepared some jokes for today. Cooperate with me. What's 6 inches long, 2 inches wide and drives you wild?"

"Oh god, your dick?" I guessed, when he shook his head.

"1000$ bill! How can you think I have only 6 inches long penis? After all we've been through," he dramatically pouted.

"Move on," I laughed.

"Whats long and hard and has cum in it?" He continued, and I prepared myself.

His dick, here it comes.

"What?"

"A cucumber, silly."

"I really thought it was your dick," I replied with a wide smile.

"It's not hard right now, but can be in a few seconds if you want. Whats 72?"

72?

"Bring it on, I have no idea."

"69 with three people watching," he smirked at me, making me remind my dream about foursome.

"What goes in hard and dry, but comes out soft and wet?" He asked me, and I grinned.

"Know this one! Chewing gum," I replied, seeing him clap.

"Pretty impressive," he smiled at me.

"Ok, seriously now. I'm begging you, please, don't use them today on Ohm, please," I pleaded, knowing Ohm wouldn't survive that.

I felt bad for him to lure him out by lying to him and then leave him with Luke alone, but I also wanted to give that a shot.

"Why not? They're amazing, and I have so many more. What about this one? What is-"

"Please," I jumped into his speech.

"Fine. I'll charm him with my eyes and my sexiness," he grinned at me.

"Luke. Can you not unleash your inner wild self in the first few minutes at him? He's not going to be ready for that. He doesn't even know you're going to be there," I tried to reason with him.

"Skirtboy, look at me," he started, taking my hands into his as he stood in front of me.

"Can you imagine me with roses and wine? With all the romantic bullshit you want Delirious to do."

I looked at the man in front of me, trying to imagine him in so many different scenarios. And even though, in every single one I could hear him talk dirty or flirt, I had a feeling he was a softie deep down.

"I can, and I'm pretty sure that you'll need to act like that sometimes. Ohm is not me, Luke. He doesn't want to get fucked by you in the first place."

"And you want that?" Luke smirked at me, getting between my legs.

"N-no! I love Delirious, you know that," I replied firmly, quickly getting away from him.

"That's impressive, but I don't love your teacher," Luke shrugged, and I frowned.

"Why am I helping you then?! I thought you were interested in him!"

"I'm! Have you seen him? Hot piece of meat ready to be eaten."

I slowly realized what was going on, and I didn't want to believe it. I knew for sure there was something he had for my teacher, because he would have given up on him a lot sooner.

"I refuse to help you fuck him. He's my teacher after all! Just admit you're interested in him not only because how he looks like," I pouted, seeing him amusedly shook his head.

"You can't change me, the same way you can't change Delirious in some way-" He stopped himself, my heart skipped a few beats.

"Change Delirious? What do you mean? Change him in what?!"

"My point is-"

"No! You said about changing Delirious. You mean I can't make him stop being a selfish and egoistic heartless bastard after I let him sleep with me?! That's what you're trying to explain?"

So he can hurt me again? Which would mean Ohm was right.

"I'm not so sure about his fucked up kink, but you can't really blame him. Forget it, I didn't say an-"

He was interrupted again, this time by my phone. I looked at my display, seeing Ohm's name.

"Yes?" I answered the phone call, feeling so many thoughts running in my mind because of what Luke just said.

"Finished, finally! Let me stop at my place and I can pick you up. I'll be at your house in one hour, is that ok?" Ohm asked, and I had to focus on what he was saying.

"One hour? Perfect, thank you," I replied, looking at Luke.

"You sound worried, is everything ok?" My teacher asked, and I smiled.

"Yes. I just need one day doing absolutely nothing. I can't wait to see you, and thank again," I said my goodbyes to him.

"I need to get back to my place," I informed Luke, when my teacher hung up on me.

"I had no idea Delirious would be there this long. I'll drive you home, c'mon."

We were in the silence the whole ride. I was thinking about what Luke was talking about, asking myself if people were right about the other man.

"Alright, please... please I beg you. Don't use those jokes on him," I said to him, before I left the car.

"Fine, but only this time," he grinned at me.

"Luke, what did you mean by it? I can't change Delirious. Explain it to me, please."

"It's nothing. There's just part of him you won't be able to change, that's all I'm saying. Now go, before that sexy teacher of yours sees me."

Part of him? What does that mean?

"I'll see you later," I mumbled, closing the door of his car.

I walked into my house, quickly changing myself. I was really glad my mum wasn't home. Firstly because I had such a weird mood, secondly because I didn't need to explain why I was going out with my teacher.

We reached the restaurant in conversation led mainly by him, as I was still thinking about so many things at once. The room was fancy, with people energetically chatting, but there was the pleasant silence, a private around us.

"Out with it," Ohm said, after we ordered our food.

"Huh?"

"I've told you a few times, you're so easy to read. Something is bothering you. You mentioned you feel alone, why?" He looked directly at me.

"It's about what you said to me. I'm afraid to let him close to me, I'm afraid of being hurt," I looked down, hearing a sigh.

"Evan, I may have been wrong. That man, you're so deeply in love with, is not the same man who hurt me, and you're definitely not me."

I looked back at him, curious to hear the part of his life kept hidden, but something was telling me this was the only thing I was getting from him.

"What happened? Who hurt you? How?" I asked in whisper, trying my luck.

"My point is that this could be different scenario. And I don't want to be responsible for your heartbreak when you decide to break up with him," he skillfully avoided my question.

"Luke told me there's certain part of him I won't be able to change, ever. So I guess you're right, both of you," I lowered my voice, when the waitress brought us a food.

"Your step-father told you that?"Ohm asked amused, knowing he wasn't my step father at all.

"Also, I wanted to talk about Bryce," he said again, after hearing no response from me.

"Yes please, because I'm more than confused over him. Just like that, with a snap of a fingers, he changed."

"We talked yesterday. He says-" Ohm was interrupted in the worst moment.

"Evan?"

I looked up, seeing Luke. I had to admit, he looked really good. And as much as hated that he walked in when I could have gotten some answers about Bryce, I was excited at the same time.

"What are you doing here?" I asked, doing all my best to fake my surprise.

"I have to meet really important client here, but since he's not here yet, can I join?"

"Yes," I smiled, hearing Ohm's answer at the same time.

"No!"

"Alright. It was a real pleasure to see you again," Luke smiled, not even looking sad, turning himself around.

Wait, what going on? He should have sat down. Where is he going?

"Wait, join us," Ohm said into the silence, my eyes widened in surprise.

What?!

It seemed that Luke wasn't surprised at all, and if he was he hid it perfectly away. I looked at Ohm if he was sure, and he gave me a small assuring smile.

This is the weirdest day ever.

"So you're doing a business, huh? Hard to believe that," Ohm said, and I felt my phone buzzing.

"Why? Did you think I was just staying home?" Luke replied amused.

"Staying home, at other houses, outside, fucking everything that fell to your knees," Ohm replied, and I couldn't even process what was going on here.

"I know many other positions, not just those on knees. All you need to do is just ask," Luke replied, and I answered my phone.

"I'm waiting in the hallway. How's it looking?" Delirious asked me, and I felt the knots in my stomach tying tightly.

"I'll be right there," I replied, hanging up on him.

"I'm sorry, I need to go. I'll see you soon. And thank you, for everything," I smiled at Ohm, quickly leaving them behind.

I saw Delirious leaning against the wall in the restaurant, his cold expression softened the moment he saw me.

"I was afraid my teacher would kill me, but there's something wrong with him. He was playing along with Luke," I informed him, my brain still confused.

"Well, Luke is a real charmer then," Delirious replied, walking towards me with a smile.

I backed away from him, my back hit the wall. He raised my head, looking into my eyes. I was started to get lost in his blue eyes, my body shaking slightly.

He brushed our lips, and I couldn't live through the tension. I quickly removed the small gap between us, smashing my lips to his.

His hands ended on my hips, his body pinning me harder to the wall. He bit down my lower lip and I eagerly let him in, running my fingers through his hair and pulling him deeper into the kiss.

I moaned, my legs got weaker, the moment his hand started to palm me. My whole body was instantly on fire, and I knew too well I craved for him. Just for a few milliseconds my mind got cleared up, and even that was enough for me to realize what I was doing.

No!

"Stop," I whispered, pushing him away.

He licked his lips, his eyes filled with lust and needs, and it was so hard to stay sober in this situation.

"I fucked up, I fucked up heavily, and I said so many times I was sorry, but you can't torture me forever," he started silently, his voice still husky.

"I love you, Evan. I don't need sex to confirm my feelings towards you. Hell, even if I should suppress my kink, even if I should let go off all the ropes and gags and never come back to them, even if I should just say goodbye to sex itself, I will do it without hesitation," he continued, and my heart pounded so widely in my chest.

"I know I hurt you, and yet again I'm sorry. The last thing I want in this situation is to corner you with this, even though you need time to trust me again," he paused himself, taking my hands into his.

"But I need to know where I stand. I can't, and I don't want to, live in the uncertainty. I don't expect any changes soon, I'll give you all the time you need. All I need from you is to know if there's really a chance for me."

"If there's really no future for me in your life, I will leave and I promise you won't ever see me again. I just need to know, that's all I'm asking."

I felt my eyes watering, a few tears began their short life journey, scarring my face with hidden pain. My lips started to quiver, my body frozen. I wanted to say something, anything, but my body stopped listening to me.

I noticed a tears in eyes, so much pain that my heart bled even more. He slowly nodded, letting go off my hands. A cold wind hit my body, and I just watched him walk away.

I wanted to scream, move, stop him, but I was just paralyzed. I couldn't move, I couldn't speak, I couldn't do anything. After few more seconds, when he wasn't even there, I slid down upon the wall, my legs completely lost their strength to carry my body. I couldn't even breath properly, I had a feeling I was suffocating. My vision was already blurrier by my tears, and I didn't have any strength to stop them.

I let him go.