Few months later....

Jai pov:

It is so satisfying to see dreams. That feeling of sleeping peacefully without worry and going in your own land where you see what you want to. You can live all your dreams then and there. No stopping you. I wish I could do the same. But it sounds impossible to me. I don't want to do those stupid pills. They will cost me much more than what I can afford right now. Anyways I hope it ends soon. But I am hoping for something which looks practically impossible right now. Isn't it??? At times I think what wrong did I do to deserve this. First mom, then dad, I never had any sibling and then I am gonna end up loosing Khanna also......

Anyways these thoughts can wait one more night. We have our last exam tomorrow which means college is officially ending. Well at least a part of it. We still have another set of journey in front of us. Ironically I never address anything as I it's always we but still I just can't have her.
Fuck you Jai. You are again distracting yourself. Concentrate on your paper you don't want a back at this point.

(So by the time Jai is preparing lets go and see what his better half oops sorry I mean best friend khanna is doing 😝)

Khanna's pov:

I can do this... I can do this.... I can do this..... I can do this..... It's not tough... Cummon khanna what are you some three year old... No you are not... It's a freaking paper that's it.... You will pass... Just as you did all in the back. Chillax.

"But what if you didn't" the bitchy me spoke.
"Yes Exactly. What if I didn't." I thought. That duffer is already leaving me because I know he is going to get a good grade and bastard already has got his interview letter. Damn that lucky bastard. He gets all of it so easily. I hate him so much. 😒😒

I would have collapsed in panic if suddenly my phone did not rang. And then I saw my saviour calling me. Man this boy knows i am loosing it.
"I love you so freaking much" and these words just spilled out I don't know why but it did and I was so relieved, that he called. He is the only one who could do this. This means calm me down when my panic reaches an altogether different level. God knows what will I do after two months.

Jai's pov :

I know she will be freaking out right now. Because she literally hates this paper. And she will again underestimate herself with all stupid thoughts so before things go pretty much out of hand let me try some damage control.

So I silently dialed her number as I made my way to the kitchen to get me another cup of coffee because this shit is definitely not going inside my mind without coffee.
After three or four rings she finally picked up. And before I could even say a hello I heard something and i stopped. "I love you so freaking much." yes this is exactly what she said but not much later it made sense why she said this because she was nervous and irritated and frustrated by now. Realizing that the silence between us was getting pretty awkward I said " 143 too". (Okay Ik it sounds crazy but yeah I do this. I just can't say those words to her without showing her that I mean those so much and I know I just can't tell her ever,  so to solve the problem I discovered these codes which at least gives me the satisfaction of saying it and at the same time realizing how messed up I am.)

Meanwhile when I was thinking all this she was simply blabbering about her little tiny anxiety attack. I need to calm this woman down. I feel pity for uncle and aunty.
"Okay khanna listen, you need to chill. It's just a Damn paper. You are over stressing yourself for this. You will do fine like always and it will end soon. Now relax and sleep I don't think you are in that state of studying."
"I will see you in the morning. Don't stress and just relax khanna. You will have perfect graduation. And you will pass with flying colors."
"Yeah I guess you are correct. I should sleep. And you should sleep too. Enough of the studies. You already are brilliant in this and duffer I have noticed that you are not looking all healthy these days. Don't even try pretending with me. You know I will catch you. So better sleep and take proper rest. I will see you tomorrow. Bye. Love you. " and with this she hung up. She didn't even wait for me to say good night. Stupid girl. But then it suddenly strike me how I am I going to keep this a secret. She is correct I cannot prevent with her for a long time. She will find out and I have no fucking clue of how will I make her understand. She won't listen to anything I will say. I will get her full concentration and she will literally sideline everything for me which is one of the reason I am keeping this a secret. I still remember how she moved in my place for some 5 days when I was suffering with viral. My fever and she beside me changing the cloth drenched in ice water and taking care of me were the only constant things in my life. I remember her shedding little tears hiding from me after third day when my fever was not going down and I was almost unconscious because of the high fever. Fifth day when I was feeling a bit better she hugged me for some 10 whole minutes without leaving me for a second like it was the last day of my life. And I hugged her back because the way she was by my side throughout I knew I always have her. I can die for this girl because she has saved my life. Not once or twice but multiple times. She is my saviour.
Thinking about all this slowly I started diving in my books again for giving my last exam with her by my side. Damn MBA is going to be tough.

Next day
(After the exam......)
I am skipping exam scenes because they are literally boring shits and I think no one practically no one can make it interesting 😣

So it's finally done. I just can't believe this. We are graduates now. We have a degree. A degree I have earned after all these years. A degree which will be pitied against me always because even of dad left me his surname never did. Many people say it came automatically to me and khanna because we have everything already. We are born to become business people. We have everything fed to us. This irritates me but then I cannot react. So I choose to ignore. Speaking of khanna and ignorance whether the hell is she. It's almost 5 minutes since we left the exam venue and she is no where to be seen. This is so unlike her. I thought of an over enthusiastic Khanna jumping over me and here she is no where to be seen. Where the fuck is she?? I was almost about to get some negative thoughts when suddenly I saw my energy ball running towards me. And their she was exactly the way I thought she will be. Jumping and shouting her heart out.

And why should she not shout. It's over. Our graduation is done. We are done with one important part of our lives with lots of ups and downs but overall everything is worth it. Almost after half and hour of shouting jumping and celebrating we make our way to our favorite cafe because my energy ball was starving now.

The celebration has just started. And I was so excited for something coming really soon. Next week we both have our interview for our MBA admissions (Yes you heard it right she finally got her interview letter today morning and our little celebration felt complete because honestly we both were a bit tensed about it) but hold on. I am not excited for this. I mean I am but I am more excited about something else.

"Where are you lost,  and why are you smiling like a stupid chimpanzee"?  Khanna's word brought me back and I realized she called me a chimpanzee. I mean I don't want to you know praise myself much but then you know it I know it, I am good looking and that's a settled fact.
"Kuch bol bhi le duffer" (Speak something), she said.

(Jai lost in his own thoughts 😍)

"Kya bolu", I replied. (What should I say).
"Bol ki Tu sabse bada pagal hai ", She said. (Say that you are the madest man this world has).
" Haha khanna you are so funny", I replied.
" Yes and you are so annoying", She said.
"Fuck off",  I replied.
"Cummon just tell me now a days looks like you have started keeping a lots of secrets from me duffer. " she said.
And realizing where this conversation is actually going I had to turn it because right now I just wanted to avoid it. So I quickly replied," I was thinking about our graduation gift. "
" OMG I am so excited for that Jai. Just one more week to go. Yessss!" I could sense her excitement in her reply and I was equally excited.

"Can't believe EUROPE TOUR IS FINALLY HAPPENING"

Yes you heard it right. This was our graduation gift. We promised each other one month full of us and togetherness exploring Europe covering maximum cities and making memories for our two years of survival minus each other.

So the plan was me leaving for California and she leaving for London next week and then killing it in our interviews and meet at Budapest airport next Sunday to finally start the trip we waited for since eternity.

(Khanna enjoying her order, meanwhile Jai gives us an idea of the graduation gift)

So here it is. I did it. This update was quite difficult for me. Don't know why but this passing month was so weird and crazy for me. I had like the best start of the month. I wrote a blog on 4 Years of Hasee toh Phasee which both Sidharth and Parineeti read on twitter. Yes I am not joking I have proof 😝😂
I was still in that hangover when I got to finally meet the man himself Yessss you guessed it right (if at all you did 🤣) SIDHARTH MALHOTRA. I met Siddy for real. He is one gorgeous soul both physically and internally. So I just had the best time of my life but then second half treated me like shit. So meeting sid and him reading my blogs (which has happened more than once) are exactly what khanna is to duffer. Just the way khanna keeps duffer going these moments keep me going.

I am not going to bore you much but will just thank you for bearing with me this time and I promise next update won't take this much time.

And do tell me what you guys think about this graduation gift??
And and and do check my other book "It was always you"

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