Dean's PoV.

For some time now I have noiced that I get weird feelings and urges when I'm close to Cas. Like just a couple of weeks ago when he looked confused in that adorable way and I got the urge to kiss him. Or everytime he comes back after being gone and I just want to hug him and never let go.

Before I just shake the thought of and ignores it. It doesn't mean anything, right? But this kast month I have started to slowly realize that it does mean something. I was just scared of understanding it before. But I think I understand.

Well, I know I cannot deny it anymore. I have ...feelings for him. Like really strong feelings. Not just like he's a best friend or a brother. More in a soulmate way. Now everytime I see Cas there is three sentences in my head that I wan't to say but never will.

I want you.
I need you.
I love you.

And I have no idea if Cas feels the same. He fell from heaven for me and I fell in love with him. It just took me long time to realize.

Waking up next morning I find Cas standing in a corner of my room, staring at me.

"Cas! What have I told you, that is just creepy!" I say and tries to hide that I'm blushing. Must he watch me sleep? I ask myself and pretends that there isn't a part of me that says He could just sleep with me.

"I'm sorry Dean." Cas says and looks sad. "I won't do it again." When he is sad he got like these adorable puppy eyes... Did I just think they where adorable..? Well they are. And impossible to resist.

"Good. You're forgiven. Now leave so I can put on some clothes." He just stares into my eyes. It makes me a little uncomfortable but it also makes me not wanting him to look away. I ignore the feeling.

"I don't want to leave."

"W-what?" I can feel my cheeks burn hot.

"You see, I think I'm falling." He continues, looking me straight in my eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Well, I think that is one of the terms for it, I'm not completely sure, according to google I'm either dying from some incurable disease or I'm in love and due to the fact that I'm an angel and can't have human diseases I would guess on the latter." He pauses for a moment, like he's not really sure how to continue and I becomes aware of how hard my heart is beating.

"Dean Winchester ...I have been falling rapidly and chaotically for you for a very long time now and ...I need you to know that. I need you to know that I love you."

Written: ? & 7/9-16
Published: 15th November 2016
Words: 483