Hey.....Hello again...

I though u kept the promise we made.....

I guess not...

Where are u now?.....who knows.....

Maybe ur missing me like I do.....

Why did u have to leave me when u said "Im never going to leave u!" If u just did....

It hurts to not see u....

Ur smile....ur laugh....Ur existence...

U know that when I was 3 or 4 years old.... u left....I always waited for u until u came....

But u never did until I was 9 years old...

I was so happy to see u again....

Until right now.... 11 years old.... u left again....but ur going to be gone for sure...

I hate the pain I'm feeling now....

Everyone in my class said "Why are u sad??" Or "What happend to u??" And "Why are u crying??" I never awnser dem bk.....

Rn I'm crying while writting this....

Why did u went to him when he called u...

U knew that it was wrong....

But why did u do it anywayz....

It hurts.....not seeing ur experience or being with me...

Ik ur out deir...laughing with ur friends....maybe forgetting me and my sis...

I don't think I can hold my tears....

I will wait for u....to come bk...even if it takes 6 or 5 years....or maybe more....

I just want u bk....

Laughing.....smiling at me..

I kept my head high...

I work hard for u...

I have A's B's and 2 C's I hope ur happy abby....

Even though it kills me...

Will I ever see u again?

I hope.....but I don't think so....

My pain and sadness cannot explain better....

I don't wanna live anymore.....

I don't think i can keep writting....

This is the only book i keep updating...

I set my pain here...even though it doesn't make me feel any better....

Theirs nothing u can do readers....

I'm sorry i have to be such a depressing girl....But i can't deal with the pain I'm holding in my heart waiting to break down ....

I will never let myself break down....

Never....

Until i can't deal with the pain any longer....

But I think I will never break down...

I'll try my very best to cheer u guyz up....

I hope u understand the pain I'm dealing with...

Vote...or comment....or don't... ..

I hope ur happy....

I'm still alive...

I use to be a happy lil girl......but I'm changing alot every year....

Weird right?

Bai guyz....