( jades pov )

The rain poured down while I kept walking I sighed I saw the park across the road I ran across the road not caring how many cars just hit the break someone yelled "ARE YOU CRAZY!" I turn around and said "No bitch I'm depressed get it right next time!" I kept walking till I got to the park I smiled seeing nobody there just fog and rain drops falling I walked through the park calming my self down. Everything was perfect until I heard someone scream "JADE CRYSTAL WILLOWS!" I already knew who it was dammit depression is such a bitch some times to me I turn around to see my dad pissed off. "GET IN THE CAR RIGHT NOW!" He yelled I just shrugged it off and got in the car because honestly what's the fucking point of fighting back? Not that anything will happen he will just lecture me and the mom will play innocent and you know what? I don't give a fuck anymore. honestly nothing is colorful or happy its all grey and depressing makes sense to me. I look out the window and sigh putting my headphones in but my dad yanked them out and said "we will talk about this when we get home." "Okay you talk and I'll ignore you like always" he stopped driving and said "YOUNG LADY DONT YOU EVER DISRESPECT ME OR YOUR MOTHER!" I ignored him like always and just put my head phones in and listened to the song sober again. I nodded my head until we got home I opened my car door while we were in the drive way jumping out and running inside I picked the lock and ran upstairs to my room and locked my door I heard the car pull in and my dad ran in and started banging on my bedroom door yelling "JADE CRYSTAL WILLOWS YOU HAVE 3 SECONDS TO OPEN THIS DOOR-" "OR WHAT! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU GOING TO DO HUH KICK IT DOWN IT WILL JUST BE A WASTE OF YOUR TIME! IM NOT COMING OUT BECAUSE THAT BITCH SLAPPED ME AND I KNOW WHAT I DID WAS FINE BECAUSE I WAS FIGHTING FOR MY SELF FOR MY RIGHTS SO BEFORE YOU SAY ANYTHING ELSE JUST GO FUCK YOUR SELF!" I yelled at him I heard him growl but he stopped and left leaving my step mother saying "I SLAPPED YOU BECAUSE YOU DISREPECTED ME!" "AND I HIT YOU BECAUSE YOU DISRESPECTED ME AND YOU KNOW YOU DID YOU HAVE NO RIGHT TO TELL ME HOW I SHOULD DRESS OR ACT BECAUSE ITS YOUR FUCKING FAULT THAT IM SUCH A BITCH TO YOU!" "OH YEA AND IF I EVER LEAVE I SWEAR TO GOD I AM TAKING COLE WITH ME NO DEBATES BECAUSE I KNOW FOR A FACT SHE IS GOING TO BE IN BETTER HANDS!" I yelled back at her I heard my dad said "let her unwind we will take care of the issue" later I knew they were going to leave. I didn't hear any yelling or anything just pure silence I sighed and took of my soaking wet hoodie and threw it on the ground I stretched out my arms and looked over at my desk. I grabbed the key to the locked desk and opened it I saw a locket my mom left me. not the step mother the only person I love besides Cole and a picture of her along next to it was a razor. I grinned and said hello old friend I stop cutting my self when I found the picture in my dads school year book. I cut it out and use it every time I want to cut my self I look at it and remember my mom wouldn't leave me here if I couldn't handle it. I grabbed the razor but right now I was thinking I need to unwind and right now music isn't helping me I tried many times to be relaxed today but they messed it up. Might as well be just as fucked up as today I mumbled taking the razor and cutting my self with it

( author chans note )

woah took a dark turn didn't it anyway is this book okay? I don't really know but I do know this Jade is one depressed bitch isn't she?