Dear, You

I'm already smiling, because I didn't think I'd get to write a letter like this any time soon, or that I'd want anyone to make me want to. I told myself I was fine alone, that it was what was best for me, and that no one else was necessary in my life to make it better. It seems that didn't last long, because I met you, and I've been unbelievably happy ever since. You just unknowingly walked in and broke down the wall I was attempting to build around my little fragile heart.

Don't get me wrong, I know this is likely to go nowhere, but you give me so much hope. Hope I didn't think I had for myself anymore. A hope that to me doesn't matter if it gets crushed, because I just enjoy talking to you and what we've got between us right now is probably more than I deserve. You're like a burst of colour and light in my black and white world and it's refreshing and beautiful. You're beautiful; and handsome and quirky, and adorable. I'm disgustingly into you, and I'm embarrassed sometimes, but you only ever say you love it. I tell you that talking to you makes me happy, and you reciprocate fully. You don't try to make me jealous and you never tease me when I get flustered over the fact you're even into me at all, you only make me feel happier with the words you speak. You accept the silly side of me and embrace it and it's just so damn nice to not feel repressed when I voice my ridiculous thoughts and act on impulse. So, thank you.

I want you to know that I accept everything about you, and I never want you to question that. I'm so happy about where you are in life right now and that you aren't as sad anymore, because you are someone who deserves to smile every day of your life. I want you to smile as often as you make me smile. I know you went through a lot, and are still dealing with many things of that I'm sure, but just know that no matter what I value your happiness. 

Hell, it's impossible for you not to make me smile and i love that i can make you smile in return. I know I said that already, but it's the truth and I just want to convey how important it is to me because it's been so long since I felt genuinely excited about someone. Just waking up to snaps or messages from you makes my entire day, and I know we're limited for how often we can talk, both being very busy, but I almost don't mind it. I like the chats in the morning and late at night before and after the long hours of the day. It's everything I've needed and I really hope to meet you like we talk about all the time. That would make this year for me, no doubt about it.

I guess, all in all, I just want to thank you for being someone who can make me so impossibly happy even though I can't understand why you'd even look my way with the sea of people vying for your attention. Thank you for all the kind things you say, the adorable pictures you send, and I can't wait to skype and watch anime with you because damn people talk a lot of shit but no one actually does it ;-; You're an angel and thank you for coming into my life.

Love, 

A girl who's cheeks hurt from smiling.