My mind is splitting,
Tearing in two.
I'm falling apart,
It's nothing new.

I wish I could tell you
Just everything.
Instead I ignore it,
Crying and crying.

You think that you know,
But simply-you don't.
I hold it all back,
To give you some hope.

Hope it'll be fine,
Hope that I'm okay.
Instead I just lay here,
Wasting away.

Nothing's getting better,
It never will.
I wish I could just,
Let the truth spill.

Here I am lying,
Lying yet again.
I can't tell the truth,
To such a good friend.

I love you too much,
To burden you with this.
I'm a crazy motherfucker,
Nothing makes sense.

I wish I could just,
Curl up and die.
I know I said I wouldn't,
That was a lie.

Nothing is real now,
Everything's fake.
How can I live here?
What can I take?

You just keep asking,
If I'm doing fine.
What should I tell you?
Should I just lie?

I can't hold it in now,
Not anymore.
I need to let it out,
Just open the door.

I'm screaming I'm crying,
But only alone.
I can't let you see me,
Break my own bones.

Nothing is normal,
And neither am I.
I wish I was normal,
I also wish I could fly.

Is it too much to ask,
To just be okay?
To wake up happy,
Day after day?

I'll never be happy,
Not like this.
Yet somehow you're happy,
Give me some tips?

I want to tell you,
All that there is.
Instead I keep masking,
Hiding you from all this.