WHY?

I'm lost
I'm confused
I'm tired
But

I'm not scared
This black room never scares me
But I can't sleep
Red stains my arms and floor
But I can't feel
I don't want to feel
I've grown used to the pain
But I want to give up
So why don't I
I have nothing to lose
So why am I here
I had no reason to be here
Or was it just to be hurt by everyone

Why was I here
Why was anyone here
Why should I stay here
Why should I care
Why am I so tired yet can't sleep
Why is anything what it is

I just want to stop asking WHY
And Learn HOW to give up