I keep looking for something to take the pain away, but nothing ever works.

My heart always aches. It yearns, begs, desperately pleas for the old days.

When we would talk for hours without interruption. Complete nonsense no one cared about except for us.

But once again, I feel it before it's even really begun. I feel the tug on my hand, your palm slipping from mine.

It's only a matter of time before you're gone forever. I know you. You know. We've been lying to ourselves for ages.

This couldn't happen. Wouldn't happen. But history proved us both wrong. It always happens. It's always going to happen. I guess it was just a matter of time, I was a fool to believe differently. 

It's selfish to ask you to say, but god damn it it hurts so bad. I really wish you would.

But I can't make you. If you have to leave, then I have to let you go. I can't hold you back any more.

I'm sorry.

This is the hardest thing I've ever had to do. And I hope you have a good life, the best life, because you fucking deserve it. You deserve everything you've ever wanted and more.

Because you've been the very best person, the very best friend that I've ever had.

You have always, always been there for me. Every god damn fucking step of the way, even when I was just being a stupid little bitch. I hope I was the same for you. I tried. I really fucking tried.

You were always the most important person in my life. I loved you more than I have ever loved anyone in my entire life before.

And I wish things could say the same, but I guess they can't. Times are always changing.

I guess I need to learn to change with it. I don't know.

Maybe we'll meet up again down the road somewhere. I really hope so.

But anymore nothing works and it hurts far too much. So, I have to let you go.

I love you. Goodbye...