Karma's POV

Rio apologized repeatedly after Nagisa left, saying that she shouldn't have interfered, and that she made matters worse, but I simply told her it's fine and zoned out. She left shortly after, but now I'm sitting on my couch, my mind stuck on replay of what just happened.

I can't be upset at Rio for trying to help. I know I messed up by escalating our relationship from the start. Can't really blame me for how my body reacts to him.

The way his sky blue hair feels like silk against my fingers, how his azure eyes can send fear into my soul, but the blush across his cheeks shows how flustered he actually is around me. Like I said....

The horniness took its toll on my mind, body, and soul.

And..... I feel myself getting excited just from thinking about his head...... not 'that' head of course. Shit. Immediate cold shower needed now.

Honestly, need to control my thoughts if this is going to work between Nagisa and me. At least my cock already gets along with him.

Fuck you, twisted mind.

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It's been four days. We started school on Monday and it's now Friday. Nagisa hasn't talked to me at all during lessons. Karasuma made us focus on knife work after the first day, stating that we need to "spend time on individual skills one at a time," meaning that two weeks will be spent to sharpen each skill.

I'm not complaining, since knives are a very useful weapon on the battle field, as Koro taught us, not every battle is fought in the open, like how I always imagined wars going, but there are fights hidden in the shadows.

Being Gods, using our powers could reveal our locations to enemies, so it's important to improve our physical strength in our human forms. Using weapons makes it easier, but knives, in my opinion, are the best, because it helps 'silent' kills.

Thinking about physical strength, I worry about Nagisa, because his strengths don't include brute force, but I know that he can take care of himself. Every time I want to speak to him and try to, my body freezes and my words refuse to escape my mouth.

Am I nervous? Waiting for him to say something first?

At first, I knew he needed his space, but now, I think he just doesn't need me. In class, he never looks away from the window or teachers. No glances in my direction.

How would you know?

I patiently wait for his eyes to meet mine.

That's just a better way of saying you stare at him.

The only person he talks to is Kayano. She gives me sympathetic eyes and sad smiles when I ask her how Nagisa is doing. He just needs time, Karma. She always tells me.

After our last seduction lesson with Irina, she told us, "Due to a couple of situations regarding our last lesson, we'll focus more on different speaking techniques and languages from enemy lands of Arogon."

She knew something unfortunate happened between Nagisa and me, so she gave me a small, genuine smile to lift my spirits, along with a stern pat on my back when I first arrived at school on Tuesday.

We argue sometimes during our lunch breaks, since I usually spend my time eating in her office. I still appreciate her help.

I refuse to allow myself to mope, and constantly think about little Nagi. He's been focused on what's truly important, as what Karasuma told us, "You are here to become warriors for Arogon, and learn how to become powerful Gods, even at such a young age. Defend yourself. Better yourself, and most importantly, be true to yourself. Growing up in the human world made society's views keep you from reaching your full potential."

What's truly important to you?

I wonder what Nagisa's answer would be. What's my answer? If I want to be with Nagisa, then I have to better myself first. I'm unable to help him, if I can't help myself.

Reach your full potential.

We're currently practicing knife work with Karasuma and Koro. My eyes wander towards a certain blueberry. The interesting bluenette is swiftly throwing knives at the wooden dummies with targets on them in one corner of the gym. He looks marvelous, dancing with his blades. Karasuma and Koro looking his way with proud smirks on their faces, a tiny one from Karasuma.

"Wow, Nagisa! You should help me with my knife work."

"Me too! It's hard doing it with my left hand."

I snap my head to the right and see Sugino and Kayano standing by, watching Nagisa as he stops and gives them a tiny smile.

"I'll think about it, but no promises."

What? When did Sugino come into the picture?

I can't be upset with him having friends, or become jealous over his attention being focused on...... that pitcher.

While the three of them chatter amongst themselves, Rinka and Chiba approach them and join in their conversation. After a few moments, the group split into two groups: Rinka and Chiba, Kayano and Sugino, knives ready in each hand, while Nagisa stands in the middle, telling them to begin.

I see improvement in each of their movements, assuming Nagisa does as well as he intently watches them. His poker face on display, azure eyes completely dull with no sign of emotion, almost as if his soul was already owned by the Grim Reaper.

There's no use trying to remove the guilt building up in my chest from not having the guts to approach him. Part of me is afraid of his reaction, while another is afraid of how I would react. I've already proven before that I'm reckless, and that's not needed at this moment.

What exactly do I need right now?

I said that I need to improve myself, but how can I?

Sharpen your skills. That's what Nagisa is doing.

Suddenly, azure orbs stare into my mercury ones. Is it alright for me to approach him now?

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