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The moment he saw her outside the Windowsill, he knew she meant something more...

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Not just the rain, but the breeze made him realize the purity of her love.

Y E A R S   B A C K 

B O N D I T A - 1 4

A N I R U D H - 1 7

. . .

''Where were you?'' my mother's sweet voice came to me as I limped my way into my house, I couldn't believe it was Anirudh that helped me when I ran away from home. 

''I-I, umm I was'' I didn't know how to respond to this, I honestly didn't know what to say.

''With Zamindar Anirudh Roy Choudhary'' I jumped in surprise when I heard my brother's voice from my back, I gulped audibly and turned to look at him, a sly smile on his face.

''W-What?'' I ask, unable to believe how he knew all of this, was he following me?

''What is your brother talking about Bondita? Is it true?'' my mother's meek panic-stricken voice made my heart twist in agony.

''Of course not mother, Bh-Bharghav is lying, he always does'' I retaliate, throwing my hands in the air.

''So you started lying too, didn't you? Took my words too seriously? Huh? Tapas Mukherjee is coming to see you, and you'll never open your mouth about that high caste fool again, do you understand?'' Bhargav seethed, yanking my wrist painfully.

''Y-Yes'' I whisper, I knew I could force myself not to, this was my destiny and I knew I couldn't run away from this, despite my strange and strong feelings for a person I am not supposed to feel these things for are out there, I had to ignore them.

''Very well, his family will be here tomorrow, behave'' my brother threaten, gripping my wrist harshly, I gulped the lump in my throat and nodded.

The day turned too fast before I could even process, and the time when the man I am supposed to marry would be here any time.

I ran my hands through my hair and looked at my reflection on the mirror, my face looking the most beautiful, the silk was draped over my head and I was bejewelled the most today, to impress a man who was way older than me. 

I shut my eyes tight, letting a tear slip from them as my brother held my hand, and walked me towards me the place they all sat, I looked at the man through my feathery lashes.

I ran my eyes over the man, I had to agree he looked good, I was glad by the way he kindly talked to my mother, his smile was tender, he softly looked up at me, I gasped when he gently smiled at me, his eyes were so pure.

It hurts to break them.

''Hello'' he softly said at me, but I had my mouth zipped shut, when I was about to open them, I saw someone leaning on the door sill, the light from the back making him hard to make out.

My heart raced when I saw that smiling visage of the one person I wanted to see now, Anirudh Roy Choudhary. 

My eyes widened as I raised an eyebrow at him, he shook his head and chuckled, his hand crossed over his chest, he dropped his head down in motion and looked at me through his lashes, his eyes brows arched as a lopsided smile teased his lips. 

I inhaled sharply as he took the edge of his bottom lip between his teeth, before running his fingers through his fine hair, he raised his brows in question before walking towards me languidly.

It was strange no one noticed him coming towards me, every thump of his shoes louder as we walked, until he stood in front of me, his eyes down as he raked those hazels over my face. Those steps were painfully slow, like my breath.

''Beautiful'' he breathed making my cheeks turn crimson, I fiddled with the fingers of my hands as I smiled timidly, what is wrong with me. 

His hand came up and twisted the single strand of my hair with his index finger before leaving it with curls, he slightly hit his knuckles on my cheeks, running them down my face, till my collarbone.

''I'm sorry'' I whisper as he walked around me, standing behind me, I felt his body heat with this. But yet it was delusional. 

''For what love?'' he chuckled behind me, his skin nearly touching me, my fingers played with my rings at the depth of his voice, so young yet so flawless. 

''For this, I'm sorry I couldn't be yours, I have no other choice'' never knew when my vision blurred with tears, my lips quivered at the intense feeling that was at its brim. 

''Who says that?'' his words made me frown, what does he mean by that?

''The moment you remember me in midst of your life's most critical moment, dream about me when you are never supposed to and smile in my name, just makes you mine, not physically but my heart'' he smiled, placing his chin on my shoulders, softly blowing on my skin, the tendrils of my hair fluttering in the air, I shuddered. 

I softly craned my neck and looked back, his face so close to mine that it drove my breath away, his eyes, they are so beautiful.

He raised an eyebrow questioningly, a small teasing smile lingering on his lips, I inhaled sharply as they came near mine. 

''Bondita?'' I jumped in surprise when I saw the man, named Tapas call me, I looked at him quizzically, looking around confusedly, looking for that person, but he was not there.

I hallucinated him, did I? What is wrong with me?

''Uh, umm sorry?'' I stutter looking around, tucking my hair behind my ear, his hand suddenly came down and held my face, by my chin and made me lookup. 

''From today, you're mine'' he whispered with a small smile, I felt my heart crush.

''I-I''

He pressed his lips onto the skin of my forehead, I won't lie it was sweet of him, I knew I wouldn't get the person I wanted, but he would be perfectly fine. 

''Just mine''

. . .

I chewed my bottom lips as his fingertips drew a line of vermillion on my hair partition, I exhaled deeply as the motion, I shut my eyes tightly, letting a soft tear slip out of my eyes.

''Don't cry little girl, I don't bite'' the voice made my heart stop, my eyes widened as I shot my head towards my husband, but that wasn't him. 

''Go away, you're a hallucination'' I whisper at Anirudh dressed as the most perfect groom I have ever seen, those dimples poking on his cheek, he blinked innocently.

''I'm here because you're dreaming of me, isn't this supposed to be your marriage? You bad girl, when your new husband is sitting in front of you, you're dreaming of another man? That's not very disciplined of you'' he teases, taking the side of his lower lip in between his teeth.

''Don't you dare-'' before I could complete he shut my mouth with his hand, his eyes widened in tease.

''Uh uh'' he tutts ''Don't''

''Aniru-''

''Goodbye little girl, enjoy your new married life'' he taunts before softly flicking my long earrings, that was all it required to make shoot out of my reverie.

''You ok? You seem like you're always hallucinating someone I very much know'' Tapas whispered in my ears, I could feel his smile on them, I gulped audibly, my eyes unfaltering from the flames of the burning fire. 

''You'll forget about Anirudh Roy Choudhary from today, because you're bound to me my sweet girl'' he says linking his fingers with mine, I looked up at his gentle face, he smiled softly, delicacy in his eyes. 

''Yes'' I whisper, letting another slip out of my closed eyes.

. . . 

''Again lost in your dreams aren't you? On the first day of your collage?'' I opened my eyes in a jiffy, looking at the back profile of the man once I had to hallucinate. 

''I wonder what you always dream'' he says adjusting the loose sleeves of his black robes, ruffling his hair a bit, he smiled with satisfaction of his own reflection. 

''Anyways, let's get out of this brothel, shall we? No take a quick bath, I'll be waiting'' he says throwing a soft towel onto my lap, I nod, jumping off the bed. 

''Uh, and what I dream, I always dream about my past, for your information'' I say softly before shutting the door to my bathroom, leaving him pondering about my words. 

When the warm water touched my body, I let out a relaxed breath, sometimes it hurts, to be torn between two men, one who loves me and the one whom I love.

Sometimes the voice tells me that every moment I spent with this is wrong, but my heart says otherwise, the thoughts are heavy in my head that I fall on my knees. 

''Troubled are you sweet girl?'' I hear a voice from afar, I dig my nails into my thighs, not a dream again.

But in this dream, the dream man was different, this time it was Tapas.

''Tapas?'' I ask confusedly as I look around, this is my riverbed by the village, and I looked way young and so did he, I was on my knees and I felt his hand on my shoulders.

''Why so confused? Who else could it be?'' he chuckled moving the tendrils of my hair from my face, I nodded, I remember this moment.

''No one'' I smile genuinely, in this life, in this village, he was the only who loved me, I drop my head onto his shoulders as his hand come around and hold me closer, warmer.

''Are you troubled?'' he ask, looking down at my face in concern.

''Yes I am, in such a deep trouble that I can't unravel which is the truth and which is a lie'' 

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There ends another chapter, well nothing to be happy about, it was heavy with hallucinations

Me after reading and writing all these hallucinations and dreams:

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