She clung to the empty section of the wall of fame.... Her eyes bloodshot and teary and fresh ones still drizzling as if an unstoppable havoc has been created inside her and crying was only way of venting it out...
She had clung to the empty section where she imagined naveen to be... She often came here to talk to him... Wondering if he's there watching her from the other side.... She wondered if he would ever forgive her for what she had done...
If he would forgive her for defying everything he had taught her until now.....

Huda... Who has been looking for her since they have returned.... Found her clinging to the wall..
. "phoolan tu yaha.... Me kabse tujhe dhoond raha hu yaar... Tu captn. Sir ke liye pray karne bhi nahi aai neeche"
Mention of captn rajveer startled her
....
She immediately tried to gain her composure..though she could notice that huda was guaging her behaviour all this while wondering what exactly happened overnight that has completely flipped her around...

She maintained an unreadable expression on her face
"huda tu chal... Me abhi" ...but then she noticed blood all over his t shirt and got worried... "huda ye sab"
But before she could say anything huda understood.... "mera nahi captn sir ka khoon he"

"abhi hospital se aaraha hu... Dr. Ritu safe house se farar ho gayi thi...."
He narrated whole incident to naina... About how Dr ritu had tricked him to return back to academy to fetch her... And as he was midway... He realised how she had tricked him.. And how he had rushed to the hospital where he witnessed captn. Rajveer... Lying there... Supposedly successful in defending himself from dr. Ritu who was dead on the hospital floor... He praised him and his gallantry... Amd how he wished he could ever be as brave as captn. Rajveer is....
Naina was listening to his narrative.. While it suddenly occured to her
She asked.... "huda.. Dr. Ritu mujhse kyu milna chahti thi..."

"Pata nai phoolan... Tere bhayya ke baare me kuch batana chahti thi"
Naina was in utter disbelief... But now that dr. Ritu was dead nothing could've been done..."kuch bataya dr. Ritu ne tujhe.. Wo mujhse kyu milna chahti thi..."

"kuch nai.... Sivaye ek naam ke.

Baar baar kisi abhimanyu ka naam liye jaa rahi thi..."

"Abhimanyu??.. ". Naina was perplexed...she had heard this name before.... But from where she could not recollect....

"Wese ye sab chhod.... Chal hospital chalte he... Captn. Rajveer tere baare me puch rahe the... Unhe hosh aa gaya he... Behoshi me bhi bas tera hi naam liye ja rahe the... "
Naina ignored him and tried to walk away... She could not sum up the courage to talk about rajveer... Blood drained in her veins and a surge of anger emerged on her face.. On herself or on him she couldn't decide...
" ruk phoolan... Jabse hum mission se aaye he tabse dekh raha hu.. Tu badal gayi he yaar... Tune bataya bhi nahi ki kya hua tha us truck me... Ek baar bhi nahi pucha ki captn.rajveer theek bhi he ya nahi... Ho kya gaya he tujhe..."
She tried to walk away.. But huda stopped her
.." dekh phoolan... Me nai janta ke kya hua tha mission pe tere aur captn. Ke beech.. Par tu ye kese bhool sakti he ki wo tere mentor he aur aaj tu jo bhi he wo sirf unki wajah se.. "
Naina sarcastically smiled... Unable to decide wether to be happy or sad about the fact...
" jake sheeshe me dekhegi to samajh jaae.... Ya shayed dikhai bhi de... Tu bas ek haad maas ka putla ban ke reh gai he... Jiski rago me sirf badla aur nafrat daud rahi he"
And this was enough to make her sink deeper in the pool of guilt she was already in... How could she forget that he was her mentor..... How could she be so cold....
After a few days of crying herself to sleep and making desperate attempts to hate him.... Slowly she started to realise that she couldn't get herself to do that.... Even now after knowing the truth...... She played that recorder again and again.... As if trying to reinforce the truth upon herself... But each time she did that.. She would only realize that it wasn't really his fault....
She could hear the desperation in her brothers voice... A tone of helplessness and resignation..... And she wondered what would she have done if she were in his place.... The alternative was unimaginable...
It was too much now... She had to confront Raj veer... Ask him the reason..... Yell at him... Possibly to show how much she hates him for betraying her.....
With all the willpower she had summed up... She finally decided to visit him...
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At the hospital

Naina was staring through the glass wall at captn. Rajveer.. Weak and frail... Asleep.. But by the expressions on his face she could make out that he is in pain...and surprisingly she cringed at the fact that his pain is affecting her a great deal...
Unable to figure what she was feeling at the moment... Technically she had come here to yell at him.. To make him realise how it feels when someone betrays you... To mock him at his cowardice...to vent out all the anger which she has been repressing since past few days.....

A nurse came in and broke her trance..."mam u cannot meet him.... We have strict orders not to let anyone inside without permission..."
"but i ve permission letter from the academy... Pls... Let me see him for a few moments.."
Unable to believe how desperate she is sounding at the very moment to meet him....
She was surprised at the fact how difficult she was finding to hate him even now... After whatever had happened.. What she felt was far from hatred....
A very strong emotion which could be anything but that

An hour of grovelling... And the nurse finally allowed her to see him...

She had warned strictly to wait until he is fully awake as he was dizzy and still under affect of sedatives...

She sat on a stool beside his bed.. Helplessly looking at the bullet wound on his bare shoulders... And tubes attached to his body.

.. She was turning weak every passing second..

She was unable to decide why she was feeling so miserable and helpless lookin at him in this state....

Maybe it had something to do with the fact that she was the reason behind it.....

Her hand invoulantarily raised to adjust his pillow and rest upon his forehead... And as she rested her hand upon his forehead... Tears started escaping her eyes like a tempest that would flow her away along itself...
He suddenly woke up.... startled by the feeling of her soft palm upon his forehead... Wondering if might be a dream.... He could recognise the feel of her soft hands.. Over his skin... It was a feeling he could never forget...

But it was unlikely.. He thought...naina would never forgive him... He has lost her forever.....
She would never forgive her brothers killer.... Never..

Naina came out of her trance as she heard him whispering her name in such a delirious state....

She quickly got up and distanced herself from him....

She turned her back towards him.. But heard him cough which made her turn to him... To notice him trying to shift over the pillow wincing in pain.
. This was enough for her to spiral out of control.... She ran and adjusted him to make him comfortable... But like hell... Isn't she supposed to hate him.... Isn't she here to yell at him.
A fresh anger surged upon her...
"cadet singh..."
Plss sit down"he gestured her...
"no its fine captn.. I just came to ...
Uh..
"

Unable to hold herself back anymore... She turned to him... And started spitting venomous words.
"u know captn.. Kash bhagwan mujhe thodi taakat aur dedete aur me ek aur trigger pull kar deti...
Guys... Pls imagine the same convo between raj and naina as it was in the serial during the hospital visit.... I m too much of a lazy bum to write it over again... 😂😂
Continuation of it is as follows....

After having said all those venomous words which yet again were successful to shatter him to the core... And listening to what all he had to say... She was about to walk away... But tears.. Were emerging out of her eyes afresh.. And it was getting way too hard to hold them back

He noticed them.... And the fact that she was as much in pain as he was.... He felt an urge to hold her.. Reassure her that its okay..even if she hates him to the core..... He would never leave her side...
But the realization dawned upon him
He has lost all his rights over her... Its not the same.... It will never be...

Still he sums up courage to call her name... With all love and affection in the world... Almost like a prayer... "naina"....
Naina who was still in a state of fix... At her place unable to cover up her sobs... Heard this and rushed towards him... Unable to hold back... She placed her head over his chest and started sobbing loudly.. Letting all the pain out... "why did you do it???"
She asked more out of helplessness than inquiry... As if asking him why he had to ruin it......why did he take naveen and himself away from her.

.. How was she supposed to live with the truth that the person she had loved was killed by him

Understanding her pain and helplessness yet there was nothing rajveer could do about it.... He slowly held her upon her chest and whispered in her ear while stroking her back and her hair... His chest was wet in her tears...
"i m sorry... To have caused u so much pain...i never wanted to do it.... I made a mistake... M sorry..."
She didn't say anything.. Just kept on weeping for a while then finally got up to leave....

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