September 25 - 2014

People have started excusing me of Harrys death. I don't understand what I did wrong. Harrys not dead I always tell them. But they just call me a freak.

Freak?

How am I a freak? I never killed Harry I'm not a freak nor a murderer.

Harry committed sucide.

I don't even know why. He became weaker and weaker day by day because he never ate.

I tried to talk to him but he always said he was fine. And I'm the stupid one to actually believe him.

Maybe this is all my fault.

Harry came to me today again. He told me to let go of him now and just see him as a happy memory.

I cant do that.

And I never will.

Harry kissed me one last time before he was gone. I remember the first time we kissed.

We both were playing football in the rain and somehow we slipped and I fell on top of him.

The next thing I knew his soft pink lips were on mine and we were kissing. Then he told me he loved me and I told him I loved him too.

I will kiss harry like its the first time if we ever meet again.

•••••

Later today some of my 'friends' came over gushing over about some party in the woods they were going to.

They insisted that I come even though I really didn't want to go, I would rather just stay at home with Harry I told them but they just looked at me as if I were crazy.

"What?" I asked them

"Uh...nothing" Naomi trailed off.

"Actually Eff, Harrys not here right now but he told me to tell you that he would be at the party tonight" Katie said from beside Freddie.

Pandora and Emily giggled at the back as Katie smirked.

"Oh okay I'll come too then" I whispered

We entered the woods at about 5 or something so it was still bright out so we just looked around for a camping spot. Everyone just kept giggling at me when I asked where Harry was causing me to frown.

••••

Soon it was dark and more people stared entering the woods.
People were smoking eating shrooms and drinking, the music blared loudly out of the speakers.

Then Freddie went around giving everyone sparklers and he then lit them up for everyone.

I could tell everyone was high I had had some shrooms and half a beer causing me to get a bit dizzy, thats when I saw Harry. Finally.

"Harry!" I yelled at him from a distance

He didn't answer me but actually went further into the woods. I giggled and followed him.

"Harry...." I said slowly trying not to laugh

I felt a pair of arms warp around my waist from the back causing me to erupt into a fit of giggles.

Harry turned me around and faced me looking into my eyes with a hard stare.

He then pressed his lips to mine hungrily and I wrapped my arms around his neck deepening the kiss.
I had missed this.

Harry then abruptly pulled away making me frown.

"What's wrong?" I asked him

"Nothing just missed you so much angel" he said stroking my cheek lightly

"I missed you too" I whispered as he pulled me into a hug. I wish we could stay like this forever but someone always decides to ruin our little moment like these.

"Effy?" I heard Pandoras voice.

"Yeah?" I asked

"What the fuck are you doing out here alone in the woods the party is over there" she laughed

"I'm not alone I'm with Har-" as I turn around to look at him but

he's gone.