Song: If only by Dove Cameron

I feel it the moment I look back into his eyes, that connection. I feel him inching closer to me and the moment his lips meet mine tiny waves of shivers run across my bare skin.

WOW! Is that what it is like? My heart pounds in my chest; my stomach feels like a million butterflies fluttering all around, not to mention I think he just took my breath away. I freeze, not able to move a muscle. My eyes are so wide open, staring back at his that are for some reason closed. I am so in shocked that when he pulls away he slowly opens his eyes and quickly steps back.

He quickly apologizes, "I...I...should not have done that...I'm...I'm so sorry." He steps back and walks the other way running his hands through his long jet black hair and then walks back towards me. I hear him muttering under his breath but I can't make out what he is saying. I watch as he kicks at a nearby stone and it goes flying into the woods. I don't understand if he is mad or upset at himself or at me.

"What's wrong...did I do something wrong?" I ask him but he walks back the other direction and continues to talk to himself. I wish I knew what he was thinking and suddenly that magic felt instantly gone.

When he turns back around he glances into my eyes and shakes his head. He starts to walk over to me again and this time his hands come up and cup both sides of my face. He runs his hands through my hair and he is so close to me that we are practically touching noses. He looks down at my lips and I look down at his before looking back up into his eyes. I'm not sure what I was wanting or even needing but there was something there between us...pure magic.

His voice comes out so smooth and apologetic, "I'm not sorry." And when his lips crash into mine I nearly lose it. I gasp as the butterflies beckon to get out of me. I didn't know if I should be smiling or be afraid of this feeling. I thought in that moment I was going to explode. I wasn't sure what to do, in spite of everything it all just seemed to come to me like it was supposed to happen and I let my lips give way and I kiss him right back.

He lets go of me and smiles this corny little smile. All I can do at the moment is stand there in awe. His eyes search into mine trying to figure out what I am thinking. "Say something...anything...what are you thinking at this very moment?"

I have no words; I'm speechless for once.

He reaches over and places both hands on my upper arm and gives me a little squeeze. I watch his reaction as his eyes wonder all around me scoping me out. I see it in his eyes, this look of admiration.  "Azurite...please say something. God please forgive me for kissing you it's just I have been wanting to do that since the day we met and I keep telling myself not to but here you are and I can't take my eyes off of you. You are freaking amazingly and beautiful. I...I...think I'm...falling in love with you."

I know he is lying because I may have been beautiful before but now I am completely broken and ugly. I was magical before when I had my wings and now I am nothing. Why doesn't he see it? I start shaking my head no and I can feel my bottom lip starting to quiver.  He cups my chin and looks right at me...smiling. I burst out crying, "No...you can't love me...not like this."

 I turn from him and bounce up forgetting that my wings are actually gone and I trip and fall to the ground scrapping my knee in the process. "Ouch!" I scream out loud.

"Here let me help you up." He holds his hand out for me to grab. However I am stubborn and push him away. Why can't he see me for what I am?

 I take off running and I hear him running trying to catch up to me. So I climb up the tree and I continue to climb until I can't go any farther. I squat down on the enormous size leaf and fold up into a ball, pulling my knees into my chest and wrapping my fragile arms around my legs. I bury my head and shed the remaining tears. I know he will be coming up after me even though I really wish he would just leave me alone.

I hear him below grunting and pulling up with all his strength. I wish the trees would help but every being in the land was told not to help us out in anyway and that includes the trees. By the time he climbs to the top he is actually heaving and panting all out of breath. A part of me wonders why he didn't  use his powers. I know he has got to be so much stronger than he is letting on. "There you are," he pants.  He creeps over to me hoping not to fall after he made it all the way up. He sits next to me but doesn't touch me.

 Matter of fact he doesn't say one single word and I don't know if he is at lost for words or if he is just letting me get out all my sorrow. He nudges me with his elbow and then wraps his arm around my shaking body pulling me into him. I lean in closer and let the warmth of his body comfort me. I'm not sure how long we sit like this but it actually feels amazing and I feel calmer now. I stare up at the night stars and take a few breathes in and out.

I reach up to wipe way the last tears that fall silently. "I promised to love him you know...to always be there for him and take care of him." I wait for him to say something but he just sits there and listens to me. I bet he thinks I'm think of Scolecite but I'm not, do I thought I better clarify who I'mtalking about "Rowan had nothing to do with what I did and now he is gone all because of me."

"You didn't kill him, Azurite," he says softly.

"Yes I did!" I say more demanding.  "A dragon feels the pain from his owner. He felt everything...each strike along my back...the breaking of my wings." I wipe away a tear. "He felt all of it. Without my wings I am nothing. Malachite knew what it would do to him and he did it anyway."

"Oh...I didn't know that...I'm so sorry." He loosens his hold on me. I watch as he plays with my fingers in his hand. "It's my fault. I should have let you come back on your own like you asked but I was being stubborn and being me...don't blame yourself for this Azurite...blame me."

"No...I can't blame you for that. I would never blame you. You helped me Silver and it shouldn't matter who you are or where you come from...regardless what land it is. Malachite is just rude and stuck in his old ways. He was going to punish me regardless."

"Azurite...I really do think you are beautiful and I'm sorry," he says sincerely. "But not sorry about kissing you back there."

"Silver...just stop. Look at me." I let go of his hand and point at myself. "I am far from being beautiful. Look what he did to me." I turn just enough for him to look where my wings would have been.  "I will never be the same again."

"Azurite...the wounds will heal in time and the wings...I met you without them remember." He reaches back for my hand and pulls it into his chest.

I nod slowly, he is right the first time we met I lost my wings as if they just disappeared somehow. I will never understand what had happened to them then. However now I know that I will never get them back. There is no magic in this land or his land that will ever replace them. I'm not sure what to say so I change the topic all together. "I think we need to get going...we only have four moons and then we will never be able to escape out of here."

"You really think he can keep us here?"

"I know he can...every being in the land will help him. He doesn't really expect me to make it but we have to at least try." I point towards the cave that we need to make it to. "It will take us at least three moons to make it over there on foot...so guess we need to climb down and get going."

"You ready to get out of here then."

I nod, "Yes."

 I'm not sure what lies ahead of us but I know there is no going back to my home. I will never be welcomed back in Orestes in the land of the fairies. And honestly if we don't make it out we will not be going to his land either.