Arnay was already there when I reached ,maybe I was late or he was early ;whatever we went inside the park to find a place to start a conversation I never wanted to do with anyone but here was I nervous , with sweaty palms and a lot of questions whose answers sometimes I wanted or sometime I just wanted to forget the questions. Everyone says that life is full of firsts and lasts this is mine first of facing such situation ,why the hell did he confessed??

While all this was going in my head we reached to a spot which was pretty deserted ,he signaled me towards a bench and after sitting down I said

can you sit on the left side of me

sure

He sat on the side I asked him to keeping appropriate amount of distance between us which gave me little relief

then, why me??-I blurted out

is there has to be a reason??

Then since when

Since our first encounter

We were not looking each other because that eye contact thing might make this whole weird situation little more weird

Dont tell me we were just seven back then

I didnt said that I loved you back then

Will you explain ??

For the first time when you came to our house I just liked you ,the way your eyes sparkled ,the way you laughed which you dont now , your short wavy hair , your plain blue frock and the ring you were wearing everything I just liked it ,slowly the three of us (you ,me ,and sonal) started spending the whole day together ,because your parents were busy you used to stay with us till evening. I still remember the candy and aam papad you liked back then. I didnt realize till we were separated that kind of got used to you like my days seemed incomplete without you.

Then why you stopped calling because as long as I know we havent talked in years

Ok, varsha tell me if I had been kept calling you would have kept talking

The way he took my name with so much softness and courtesy that for a while I forgot to answer but then I collected my consciousness and said

No

I had sensed that you were not interested to talk , maybe my calls became an intrusion for you

Then why you didnt asked

Because if you wanted to tell you would have told

Then when you realized that you loveI.I mean when you became sure that

Still we were staring at the grass and some fallen leaves

I saw number of faces all these years but none of them felt known for some reason it was like walking on a long road with all the strangers ,even when I felt tired there was no one to sit with me for sometime but when I saw you there was feeling of being familiar with someone on this long tiring path , your eyes twinkled in the same way , your short hair , the thing that changed was your laugh being replaced by a smile but for mee it was like crescent moon pure and beautiful.

I wanted to find a flaw in him or to tell him that he was just being obsessed and for that I said

What if I tell you that I have someone then???

Then

Arnay paused for a while

I know its a lie but if it had been true then I would have never confessed in the first place , I just want you to be happy no matter whom you choose

Then what if I dont choose you

Its ok , but till you get someone else I can hope that I can be your someone