I didnt know what was happening to me till it hit me hard

this sadness

this anger

this hurt

all these feeling make me unmotivated to do anything

i dont even want to breathe

And i didnt know what was happening to me 

i didnt know what the reason was

but the reason was you

you were the reason

you broke me

into more pieces than i could count

Your feelings for someone else turned you into 

this person

the one who hurt me

And deep down

i know

you dont want me

im just the unfortunate byproduct 

the baggage you cant get rid of

after these feelings of yours got to you

you acted out on me

you saw me as a threat 

when i wasnt even close to one

and you cant say you didnt

and maybe you didnt realize it till know

but you did

so in the end

your mind wanted to give me reasons to hate you

to leave our friendship behind

but you 

you took the initiative to push me out

you choose to do the things you did

you were jealous 

And i dont know why you were jealous 

but thats what your actions say

your words cant change what you have done

nor can they make this bullet hole you put in me heal

you said you would never hurt me like this

and i guess i shouldnt let people make promises to me

so thats my fault

im sorry

but i am just waiting for you to apologize for the things you have done

i already have 

Because i believe once you apologize 

my heart will be at peace

and it will let my mind go

so you are the reason for my pain

even if you dont believe it

and yes

i love you

but maybe letting you go is better than holding on

and waiting for you to apologize

because my time is coming to an end 

and i dont want to go like this