I've come to except that I am replaceable

I've come to expect that people will get bored of me

I've come to expect that no matter what, people will just leave me in the end

Though I wish it wasn't this way

There is only so much I can do

I am replaceable

I am something people throw away

I am

Nothing

I guess you can say I'm used to it

I guess you could say I should have seen it coming

I guess you could say I'm hopeless when it comes to loving others

I wish I wasn't

I wish I wouldn't

But with being replaceable

You can only hope someone finds value in your presence

You can only hope someone values your thoughts

You can only hope someone wants you

I am tired of being replaceable

I've looked for ways to keep people around

I am not an attention whore

I am not clingy

Nor do I invade their personal bubble

So what is wrong with me

Why have I become so replaceable

Why do I not have value

People say they value me

People say they care

People say they will stay

But they never do

Maybe I'm a monster

Maybe I'm a useless person

Maybe I just hold no human value

But I would rather you tell me to my face that I hold no value

I would rather you tell me I am no longer needed in your life

I would rather you tell me you hate me

Than continue to play these games

Don't tell me I'm important if it takes you 3-5 BUSINESS days to reply to me

Don't tell me I'm important if you change your name and not even tell me but tell everyone else

Don't tell me I'm important if you just stop talking to me with no explanation and try to talk to me again as if nothing happened

I know that I'm replaceable

I fucking know okay

It shows in everyone's actions

I am forgettable

I am replaceable

I am

Nothing

I just want someone to value me

I just want someone to see me as important for once

I wish I wasn't replaceable