youve unblocked me today and started to follow me again. 
And i dont know how to feel about it

i want to be someone, friends, again
but the emotional rollercoaster you just finished putting me through is still showing

i am still confused

still hurt, in pain

still unable to grasp what happened

it all happened so fast

one day we were talking 

the next we were strangers

you had me wiped from your life

discarding me without an explanation 

i was alone in the dark
again

i still remember the days you promised and swore you'd stay by my side

and yet here we are

mere strangers from a distant past

a different story

and it confuses me

do you want me gone

do you want me to stay

or is it better to keep my distance 

to keep myself at bay

and to be honest 

you look happier without me

you look like youre enjoying life

like the weigh was gone

so maybe i was the weight

i was your burden

i was what kept you from being the best version of yourself

and if that is true

i am truly sorry

the world goes on

i know that

but i tend to live in the past

i tend to confuse myself looking for answers

im confused

do i follow you back or not

do i tell my heart to let you go

do i get attached again