To say I liked my best friend would be an understatement

I fell in love you then

I let my heart lead my brain

It didn't end very well to say the least

It ended like everything else did

I was alone

But I knew you were happy

You were happy with someone else

Because I was nothing more than a best friend

I didn't even try to fight it

I didn't know how

I didn't know how to tell you that I loved you more than anything

To tell you I'd give my life

My world

You are my best friend

But you were my colors too

In my black in white world

You gave me color

A reason

It was so Pleasant

My dreams weren't nightmares

Till

I heard you liked someone else

Your friend screamed it at the top of his lung from the top where he was

And my heart shattered

It was worse than when my dog die

Or when I see my mother favoring my siblings over me

The pieces just layer there

And I didn't think I could pick them up

I felt so weak

So fragile

So lost

I didn't think I liked you that much

Because In reality I loved you

And I gave you my all

But I had to deal with loving you

I had to deal with the fact that we weren't together

So I shouldn't be hurt

I shouldn't be angry

I shouldn't feel anything like that

But I do

And it hurts

And I'm sorry I've been kinda distant

I just need time

I need time to heal

From whatever my heart is feeling

Because you were my best friend

That became my love

My world

My colors