I'm alone

To much now

For if I start to think

My thoughts start to consume me

They drown me

Then I can't breath

In the dark

I'm alone

No one to save me

To listen to my cries for help

To tell me that it's okay

But

I'm alone

I have to be someone I'm not

For if I were to break the mold

I would be

A failure of my people

But one of indirect means

For I'm alone

So I would sit in silence

With the words playing on repeat

The words that hurt

The ones that made me want to be alone

Even if I knew it would kill me

Because

I'm alone

With no one to understand

That what kills me is not the silence

But the memories from the past

The ones that took me hostage

So I could feel no pain

But

When I am left alone

Nothing is shielded

Nothing is protected

Only because

I'm alone