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Rachel woke up in the hospital, she looked around and saw that she was alone, but she looked on the trolley table and saw a small note and read

Rach,

Cheer up, sweet beautiful girl,

I'm here for you,

Always remember that

Sebastian.

As Rachel read the note, and gave a small smile, knowing that she wasn't alone through this. She slowly sat up more on her hospital bed, when the doctor walked in, Rachel answered all the questions, and she then said

"Excuse me, may I please have a pen and paper please. I want to do some drawing while I wait for my family to come back." Rachel's doctor nodded her head, walked out and then walked back in with paper and pens, and walked back out once more. Rachel waited for her doctor to leave. She placed the paper on the table and started writing a really long apology letter to Sebastian

Dear Sebastian,

You probably know by now that I'm your letter girl, your Iris West-Allen.

I am so sorry that I didn't tell you.

I thought that if you knew it was me that was sending you letters

You would be disappointed and upset.

I hope you weren't angry that I didn't tell you at all.

I didn't know how to tell you that it was me, or even tell you everything

That was going on in person. I felt the only way I could tell someone was write you a letter.

I want you to know and hope you know that it was not your fault at all.

Me being in the hospital after I fainted on the stage after I sang my solo, was not your fault.

You helped me a lot, you really did. Your replies to my letters gave me hope everyday

Gave me a reason to keep going. I just couldn't take the insults from Quinn and Santana

Their torments got to me and got the better of me.

I hope you aren't angry or upset, or even blaming yourself.

I am really sorry that I didn't tell you at all Sebastian.

Reading your replies, made me stronger, but the constant names and insults I get at school,

I couldn't handle anymore and knowing that my cousin doesn't care about me I just couldn't handle.

I want you to know that I do love you Sebastian, and that I do think of you which makes me stronger throughout the day.

But I know that you don't feel the same way as you are gay, so please don't blame yourself or be upset with me

Again I am sorry Sebastian.

Rachel.

Rachel read her letter as she finished writing it, and was satisfied with it. She folded it in half, and wrote his name in perfect calligraphy like she had done on the envelopes she gave to Sebastian. Rachel then placed the folded letter on the trolley table for Sebastian to read when he visits her. Rachel hoped that Sebastian won't be upset or angry with her, and hope that he isn't blaming himself.

Rachel laid in her bed at the hospital, thinking about Sebastian, and thinking about how she let herself get like this. She hated the person she became. She hated that she let herself get like this. All she wanted was to be loved, and to be accepted for who she is, and have her cousin love and care about her again. Rachel wanted to get better for her family and her two friends. As she laid in her bed, she silently cried hoping no-one would walk in. As she wiped away her tears and then saw Marley walk in with a bag. Rachel gave a small smile, as Marley walked over to her and hugged her as she placed the bag on the ground, and said

"I was so worried Rachie." Rachel hugged her little sister tight and said

"I'm sorry Marley. I really am." Marley pulled apart the hug, sat on Rachel's bed, wiped away the tears and said

"Rach it's okay. The main thing is that you are okay, and going to be okay." Rachel reached for Marley's hand and said

"I know, but I'm still sorry Marley." Marley gave Rachel a small smile and said

"Right now, we are going to focus on you getting better." Rachel nodded her head and then said

"Okay, and I wrote Sebastian a letter." Marley then saw the paper, and then looked at Rachel and said

"He knows you're his letter girl, so hopefully he will accept that one." Rachel stayed silent, and Marley then said

"I brought the portable DVD player and charger that you got me for my birthday two years ago. And I also brought Funny Girl, West Side Story, The Greatest Showman, Wicked and you're other favourite musicals and movies." Rachel gave Marley a real smile, carefully moved over on her bed, so Marley could sit properly, and they watched movies together the rest of the day. Marley looked over at Rachel who was asleep, she then paused the last movie, closed her DVD player shut.

Marley, carefully got out of the bed, put the blankets on Rachel, picked up the letter, and then walked out, closing the door and leaving her DVD player with Rachel. Marley knew exactly where Sebastian was, and she planned on giving him Rachel's letter and to make sure he accepted it. She walked to the cafeteria area of the hospital, and sat across from Sebastian and Skylar. They looked at her and Skylar said

"How is she?" Marley gave Skylar a smile and said

"She's going to be okay, she's asleep right now, we were watching movies and she fell asleep through Chitty Chitty Bang Bang." Sebastian and Skylar smiled, and Marley then said

"She also wrote a letter." Marley then handed Sebastian the folded paper and said

"Accept and read it please." Marley and Skylar then stood up and walked to the coffee store, so Skylar could buy Marley a drink, leaving Sebastian to stare at the folded paper with his name on it.