This is my first update, so I hope you enjoy! P.S. It is kinda sad.

Why do I keep changing dreams when they keep slipping away from me?
It is like I take one step forward then get knocked back twenty.
Afraid of rejection, always feeling like a disappointment to the ones I love most.
Don't like looking at myself in the mirror because I hate what I see.
Afraid of being around people because I'm afraid of what they will say.
Have to be strong but really I'm weak.
Sometimes I wish I had a shoulder to cry on instead of crying myself to sleep.
Always seems like my best isn't good enough.
Sometimes I wonder what people see in me because I see a piece of dirt, because that's all i'll ever be to myself.
I watch my mother make sacrifices for me everyday and I do nothing and it makes me feel like crap.
She bust her butt trying to make my dreams come true and I don't even try.
I just feel like a lazy piece of nothing that deserves nothing.
I hate compliments because I don't believe they are true.
People ask me do I feel beautiful and I says yeah but mean no.
What is wrong with me?