It's been about 12 days since I last updated and I am incredibly sorry :(
here's an extra long chapter as an apology
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"Hello again....Mr.Bully"

My voice wasn't reflecting fear, but it was reflecting confidence, pride, strength, justice. Key emotions that I was not able to depict back then.

I was shocked, yes, to once again see the person that destroyed my chances of happiness, but at the moment running away would be a sign of fear, which I was not willing to show.

We both stood there in silence at first, his eyes seemed to be avoiding mine, as if hesitating to make eye contact. But, his face was stern and displayed no emotion as such. However his eyes finally met mine and his lips began to twitch. "We finally meet again eh?" He exclaims in a husky voice, sounding much more mature than he used to back then.

"We both know this was ought to happen at one point" I reply calmly. The conversation seemed to be going smoothly which differed from my expectations, meaning I expected him to go livid about me and his sister. But I guess that's not the point here. Maybe he changed.

"Those for her?" I asked pointing at the purple flower bouquet he held in his hand. His eyes dropped on to the lilacs and a hint of sadness appeared on his face. "Yeah..." He mumbled.

I moved away from the grave, making way for him as he placed his bouquet below the stone, right next to mine.

I watched him as he did this, I saw the emotion on his face, I heard the sadness in his voice. For some odd reason I saw a faint reflection of myself in him. The same broken expression, the same despair.

I couldn't face him ,I didn't want to face this guilt., his sister died because of me after all.

"I should go.." I stated, turning around and stepping away from him. 'No! Please.." He exclaimed back.
At first I was surprised, why was he willing to let me in his view?

He grabbed my coat and dropped on his knees, tears rolled down his checks and he tried to speak through his relentless breakdown "I-I'm s-sorry" he wheezed through his tears.

I looked down at him in confusion

"P-please f-f-forgive me..." He managed to speak through his crying.

"I-I'm sorry...I wanted to tell you these words ever since the day she died, I've been wanting to apologize for what I have done in the past years..But I just couldn't do it"

"My sister always loved you, but she never even considered becoming friends, much less a couple . she was always this hopeless romantic trying to get your attention, but you just never seemed to notice her, you were as what I described back then..an emo, completely isolated yourself from the real world"

"She would get distracted easily, sometimes she was just unsure of her feelings till someone told her and for a while I just thought of it as a tiny crush..but then her taunts just got annoying and I guess I just wanted to do something"

" I wanted to keep her safe and as a result I judged you by your appearance, dark skin and black clothes didn't seem to shout out 'safe' so I did what I thought a big brother would do to keep you away from my sister"

My eyes widened, and I gritted my teeth, but I managed to stay calm and continue listening.

" I threatened you, and hurt you in so many ways..I knew what I was doing was wrong, but did it thinking that it would be best for my sister, but of course she eventually found out and put a stop to it"

"She was extremely furious and screamed harsh words at me that day..I took it all in, I knew she was right..She was extremely happy when you two became friends, she finally understood the feelings she had for you, but when she told you she was my sister..you just left her.."

"I don't blame you..I would hate myself too, but she got heart broken , she lost all hope of ever loving again"

"And I ? I was idiotic, as she cried her eyes out locked up in here room, I was thrashing you till you bled completely furious that you broke her heart"

The memories flashed in my mind, and I balled my fist.

" I regret it now..I regret every single punch, kick, threat, whatever I did to you I wish I could just take it all back" He took a moment and wiped his wet face.

"If I hadn't done so, sh-e she wouldn't have-" He let go of my coat and covered his face with his hands, letting out whimpers, which somehow reminded me of her.

"P-Please forgive me.."