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"When I first saw you I was afraid to talk to you. When I first talked to you I was afraid to like you. When I first liked you I was afraid to love you. Now that I love you I'm afraid to lose you."

— Anonymous

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Dear Kim Taehyung,

My last letter was three weeks ago.

Since then, I've been sort of depressed.

Sure, I still go to classes and stuff, but after that, I go home and drown myself in ice cream.

My members tell me that it'll be okay. That you'll want me back.

But these past weeks, all I've seen is you next to Irene. All the time.

It hurts. I just want you to love me, is that too hard? All my life, I just wanted a man who could love and care for me. But apparently, that's too hard.

Maybe I should change. You like beautiful girls, right? I'll put on a ton of makeup. Maybe then you'll like me.

Yeah! That's what I'll do. I'll change myself for you. Then maybe you'll like me.

So after school, I came home and grabbed all my makeup supplies.

As I dabbed on my makeup, Rosie came in, a smile on her lips.

"Hey Unnie! What are you doing?"

"Erm..."

I explained to her my situation.

She gave me a disapproving look. "Unnie," she whined, "don't change yourself for someone unworthy."

In that moment, I let my tears fall as I fell into her arms.

Why is it so hard to be me?

"I love you, Rosé."

"I love you, too, Unnie."

Love,
𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒆 ☾