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"You know your in love when the hardest thing to say is good-bye."

— Anonymous

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Dear Kim Taehyung,

We fought.

Again.

It's been two months since the date. A month after it, our relationship was going strong. I could confidently say that you were my boyfriend without worrying about any breakup.

But after that peaceful month, everything sort of went . . . downhill.

I saw you talking with Bae Joohyun.

She's a beautiful and popular girl in our class. Every boy would die to be with her.

That day, I knew I didn't want to be like those possessive and/or jealous girlfriends in the movies.

So while you were talking with her, I approached you.

"Hey, Taehyung?" I questioned, trying to get your attention.

Both of you looked at me, you with an annoyed expression and Joohyun with a soft smile.

"Hey!" Irene said, taking her hand out, accompanied with a sincere smile. "You're Jennie, right?"

I smiled, taking her hand in mine. "Yeah! Joohyun, right?"

"Yep!"

I then turned to you, and with a forced smile toward me, you told Joohyun, "This is Jennie, my friend."

That broke my heart.

"'This is Jennie, my friend.'"

The fact that you did not acknowledge the fact that we were dating.

When we got out of the conversation because of Irene bidding us goodbye, you pulled me to the side of the hallway and said, "What the fuck, Jennie? I was talking with Joohyun!"

I opened my mouth to speak, but you beat me to it.

"Don't tell me you were jealous!" you crossed your arms.

My eyes watered with tears. "It's not my fault that she's more beautiful!"

Your angry expression softened, and you took me in your arms, encased me in your warm grip.

"Jendeukie, I'm sorry," you mumbled softly.

I accepted the apology happily. I didn't want to fight.

But these days, we've been fighting a lot because of Joohyun.

I know she's clueless of our relationship, because you haven't told her. She's an angel, she would never do that.

But today, we had our worst one yet.

It was at a nearly deserted park.

You were yelling at me, but then I finally talked back.

This entire time, I had been silent, enduring the pain quietly.

But I had had enough.

"I don't give a fuck, Taehyung. Stop blaming this on me. Insecurity's a bitch and it's not my fault I lie victim. So shut the fuck up, you weak ass bitch," I said, massaging my temples in annoyance.

I don't know what snapped inside of me, I just didn't want to be blamed.

As soon as I said it, I felt sympathetic, but there was no way I was going to take back my words. You deserved them.

Your eyes darkened significantly.

"What did you say?"

The danger in your voice could be heard.

I gulped, not facing you.

You harshly grabbed me by the shoulder, turning me to face you.

"Listen here, Jennie. Joohyun is a beautiful and sophisticated girl, something you're not. So you better shut your goddamn mouth about her."

Tears swelled in my eyes, but I looked down so you couldn't see them.

"We're over, Jennie."

My heart pricked, and I went back home to the dorm with tears streaming my face.

When the girls saw, they went into mission mode.

Jisoo-unnie was being the eomma, taking me in her arms and comforting me.

Chaeyoung got me food, all my favorites.

Lisa threatened to beat Taehyung up, along with Chaeyoung.

I laughed.

They care, but you don't.

Why is life so unfair?

Love,
𝑱𝒆𝒏𝒏𝒊𝒆 ☾