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"This sad melody resembles you. It makes me cry."

— "STAY", BLACKPINK, YG Entertainment

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Dear Kim Seokjin,

Today was the last straw.

I was walking past you, trying to send you a message with my visuals, when I heard your friend say, "Why does that girl always walk around us? I think she's a sasaeng. She's so ugly, I think she's a slut. I feel bad for you, Jin."

And as if I didn't feel any worse, you didn't say anything. You stayed quiet. I could practically hear my heart breaking.

Slightly, you turned your head, to see me tearing up. I didn't cry easily, you knew that. So when you saw me, you were most probably shocked, seeing the result of your silence.

Your eyes were wide, while your lips were slightly parted open.

Your friend left, and I ran.

I ran to where I could.

Thankfully, it was already the end of the day, and I had all my stuff with me.

When I went inside my house, I immediately went up to my room, closed the door, and started sobbing.

It's hard. You want to believe what you saw and not in me. How can you play a game if you don't want to follow the rules?

I took a shower, freshened up, and went downstairs, to the dining room.

I was about to sit down at my usual spot when I saw someone else sitting there.

I never thought that you would be sitting in my chair, at my house, laughing with my dad and two brothers and complimenting my mother's cooking and my sister, who's self-esteem is very low.

It was like seeing a perfect family. Like when you want your parents to approve of your boyfriend, but you see your family already warmed up to him. I didn't want to see the moment's end, but I had to know what was going on.

When I cleared my throat, everyone looked at me.

Everyone had a happy spark in their eyes.

What my eomma said, however, shocked me.

"Jisoo-yah!" my mother shouted enthusiastically. "Why didn't you introduce us to your boyfriend earlier?"

I looked at you.

You smiled genuinely.

I fell head over heels for you in that moment.

Love,
𝑱𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒐 ༄