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"I want all of you, forever, you and me, everyday."

— Nicholas Sparks, "The Notebook"

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Dear Kim Seokjin,

This is a continuation from the previous letter.

Anyway, I chased after you, into the school's garden.

When I walked into the garden, I stopped.

You were sitting on the bench, no trace of happiness on your face. You looked like your soul was sucked out of you. You were staring out into the distance, looking lost.

"Seokjin . . ." I said, looking at you sadly.

You looked at me, your eyes in a cloudy daze. But the moment you looked at me, the daze snapped away and was replaced with raw anger.

"Kim Jisoo . . ." Your voice, an octave lower than usual, held many emotions — anger, hurt, sadness.

In that moment, I had a mantra going on in my mind.

'Kim Seokjin, I'm sorry! I didn't mean to hurt you.'

"Please, Seokjin, hear me out . . ." I had desperately pleaded, but my pleas were thrown out the window when you stood up.

With a cold look in your eyes, your body held up with shaking anger, you said, "Kim Jisoo, don't ever come close to me again. I never want to see you gain."

My heart physically broke, and as you swayed out of there, I fell onto the ground. I was sobbing my eyes out.

My breathing escalated, but I calmed myself, because if I stressed myself out too much, I could potentially die.

Those sentences hurt so much.

"'Kim Jisoo, don't ever come close to me again.'"

It was all a misunderstanding, but I knew your stubborn side. You wouldn't agree until I gave you evidence.

When I finally got out of there and went to the BLACKPINK dorm, my members comforted me.

Especially Jennie, whose previous relationship with Kai was probably a reason to be even more sympathetic.

But I will never forget those sentences.

"'I never want to see you again.'"

Love,
𝑱𝒊𝒔𝒐𝒐 ༄