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"You're the first thing I think about when I wake up, and the last thing I think about before I fall asleep."

— A Saying

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Jisoo watched as Jin picked up Jinae, who was still asleep, and peppered her with kisses she wouldn't find tomorrow.

Jisoo watched with a small sear of pain across her chest, her eyes squinted to prevent any tears and her arms crossed.

She's Jisoo, she's okay.

Jaewon, who was sleepily standing besides his mother, took his fist and rubbed his eye.

"Eomma," he muttered, tugged on Jisoo's sweatshirt lightly, "when can I go to sleep?"

Jisoo wanted to snap at him directly, saying that he wouldn't see his father for the next couple weeks. But a part of being a mother was being patient, so instead of getting angry for no reason, she put on a comforting smile and bent down to Jaewon's height, a cute contrast.

"Jaewon," Jisoo said lightly, taking his little hands into hers and looking into his scrunched up eyes. All Jisoo could see was Jin, although people said that their children were the perfect combination. "Appa is going away for weeks. Don't you want to say goodbye while you can? When Jinae wakes up, she will see that her oppa got to see Appa last, not her."

Jisoo cleverly used their sibling rivalry against Jaewon, who didn't really seem to grasp the fact that their Appa will be away in his sleep-deprived state.

His eyes lit up happily. "Okay, Eomma!"

Jisoo stifled a small laugh and got up, her mood once glum again when she saw that Seokjin was watching them, with a smile on his lips.

"Chu-yah," he mumbled, fixing his bag strap, "it's time for me to go."

Even though all that was happening was just Seokjin going to different concert sites for a few weeks to practice a bit, Jisoo was still sad. It was difficult managing to be an idol and a parent, but usually they got through it.

But when Seokjin would go away, leaving their kids with Jisoo to handle, it was always harder. Maybe it was because she didn't have her mental support and her other half.

And the fact that nobody knew that they were married with two beautiful kids was also hard, because not being able to go out in public was horrible.

Especially since Jisoo and her members gained much popularity after their most recent comeback, with the single As If It's Your Last.

Jisoo sighed in sorrow, pouting as Seokjin smiled at her from his spot on the bed.

Similarly to his wife, he was wearing a black, long-sleeved shirt with matching black pants to pair with it.

Although they wish they could, the couple could not go public. It could do too much damage to their careers, and most importantly, their children, their first priorities.

Seokjin kissed his children and Jisoo goodbye one last time, before walking to the front door, where BTS's manager was waiting for him.

Soon after he left, Jisoo picked Jaewon again and patted him to sleep. Since Jinae was already asleep, she left the two children alone in dreamland and went down to the kitchen, not being able to sleep with Jin. She missed him immensely and immediately, which wasn't a good combination, considering how much time they had left to go.

Jisoo put her coffee down and stirred it with her spoon, pouting her lips unconsciously while she thought about her husband. This wasn't any easier to him either, but they couldn't do much, once again.

After a few hours passed, she heard a loud cry from the room upstairs, followed by another shriek and cry. Jisoo groaned and massaged her temples as she forced herself to drag herself up the stairs and into their room.

When Jisoo found them, they were crying.

Again, Jisoo groaned frustratedly. It was going to be a long day without Jin to console them.

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Jisoo knew putting them to sleep would be a difficult task, but she didn't know it would be this hard. Usually, they would fall asleep with a couple lullabies, but it seemed as they really did miss Jin.

She sighed, patting their heads.

Suddenly, she heard her phone ring.

Picking it up, Jisoo, as she looked at her children, said, "Kim Jisoo, yes?"

"Have you heard the news, Unnie?" It was Jennie's panicked voice, which was unusual.

"No? What happened?" As she heard Jennie's alarmed voice, Jisoo sat up in worry and spoke as calmly as she could to not to provoke fear.

"Jisoo-unnie... Dispatch exposed that you and Jin-oppa are married and have two children. Everything is in the article. Everything."