23 august 2015

dear jimin,

it seems like you haven't seen my letter for last night. i had dropped it in this morning once i reached school but after returning from recess, i went back to the lockers to find my letter still sticking out of yours. this is so unlike you. usually, i would have it back right before recess but today's just weird.

more to more, it reminds me of something. you didn't join us for recess today and during lesson, you weren't paying attention again. i knew this as i was watching you throughout the entire class but anyway, i saw you busy scribbling things, which i highly doubt those were notes. this lasted all the way till the end of class. and, when everyone stood up to proceed to the indoor sports hall to prep for sports day, i was the first to head towards the front door, hoping to catch you along the way out. however, when i held onto your arm just as you were about to pass by, you gazed at my face for a second, before a look of pain tinted your eyes. then, harshly bringing my arms down from yours, you pushed me aside and disappeared down the corridor. immediately, both donghyun and myungsoo scrambled over to my side when they witnessed this event but i shooed them off. i told them to go on without me and that i needed some alone time to figure things out.

and so, i went back to the front of your locker and stood there for several minutes. the same pink envelope from morning was still hanging out there but just as i was deep in thoughts, i felt a tap on my shoulder.

"jimin", i called out your name reflexively but twirling around, a look of dismay fell upon me when i saw that guy back from the gym, the one whom i despised and he was in fact, smirking at me.

he scanned me down from head to toes and then, trapping me by the lockers, he made me tremble when he suddenly slammed hard on it and leant towards me to speak into my ear.

"quit wasting your time girl. park jimin...", he grinned and i shuddered from his touch when he used his cold finger to lift up my chin and level my eyes with his,

"his final decision was to leave you,"

having said that, the guy dropped his hands from me and was soon re-joined  by his group of friends who have just exited from their class.

"see you on track, fellow opponent", he even waved back at me as he walked off but jimin, that wasn't what i was freaking out on.

it was you who was making me extremely worried. again, i tried all means to contact you after which and even searched high and low at all of the places that you usually go to, but to no avail. i ran down all of the buildings in school and when i thought that i actually saw you entering one of the changing rooms, i yelled out your name. but, at that same time, i received a call from donghyun and she told me that it was time to head back to the venue to get ready for our track event.

"give me a second", i told her and then glancing up at the changing room in front of me, i hesitated as to whether or not to enter.

and finally, inhaling a deep breath, i eventually pushed the door open and let myself in.

"uh jimin?", i spoke but there was no reply.

nevertheless, i continued roaming about the room and finally hitting a corner, i happened to recognize some familiar voices. and so, following those voices, i crept silently towards them but guess who i saw?

you, park jimin.

haeri