Janet's POV

Spring was upon us. The weather was crisp and sunny with an airy essence. Bees buzzed around the growing flowers collecting pollen. It was a beautiful day nonetheless and it made me feel a little better than I was feeling.

2 weeks had passed since I had dinner with my biological family. I didn't reach out to them or anything and neither had they. Things had been quiet for the most part which could be seen as a blessing in disguise. Things weren't too bad, except the only boy who would ever accept me for me still gave me the silent treatment.

Although it seems like we have upgraded to long looks along with the silent treatment. Erin and my eyes would meet and I would quickly look away feeling ashamed. Amy and I still spoke from time to time letting me know how much Erin missed me.

In truth, a big part of me missed him too. I felt unworthy of him because I could never get over the fact that nothing in my life ever goes right. I was always left disappointed in the end and too much history was made in this place. That was why I needed out so badly.

I craved it

Erin would always be the one exception. The one person that could make me change my mind about everything. That was the impact he had on me, something I never would have thought could happen just a mere few months ago. And yet I did nothing to hash out our misunderstandings. He would always be better off without me.

I sighed deeply, resting my head in my hands. Today was the last day before we would head off to spring break. Despite how gloomy I may have looked I was jumping for joy on the inside. The bell rang for the last time and everyone made a beeline for the door.

I slowly packed my things into my bag wanting to be the last person out. Spring break was the best time to rethink my life. I'd probably take more hours at the bakery. I needed to add to my savings.

Strolling out of the classroom, what a coincidence it must have been. Erin stood by his locker leaning against it gently. His eyes were cast to the ground as he seemed dazed. I felt my airways constrict ever so slightly. Why today of all days did this have to happen? I wasn't ready or prepared for this.

What would I say?

My steps slowed down a bit but he must have heard me approaching as he instantly lifted his head. We looked one another straight in the eyes as if afraid of losing sight of one another. I gulped deeply my body frozen and feet planted to the ground.

"H- hi" I whispered. That was all I could muster up. It was pathetic I knew that but I didn't know what to say. He looked so good in his dark-wash jeans and a dark blue hoodie. It complimented his pale complexion so well.

He had yet to say anything to me. He stared hard at me and I began to fidget under his piercing gaze. I wish I knew exactly what he was thinking at that moment. I could see slight dark bags under his eyes and I knew that it had been hard on him.

"I...Erin... I'm sorry" I muttered pathetically. It was pathetic I know and yet I felt the need to say it. I wanted him to see how sincere I was and how much I hadn't meant to hurt him. Deep down he was a good person and he deserved someone who could give him everything he desired.

He stood looking at me for while. His deep almond-shaped eyes stared deep into my soul as if trying to decipher me. He suddenly reached his hand out with a torn-up textbook in hand.

"Amy said to give this back to you" he muttered emotionless. I awkwardly grabbed the book wondering why the hell she didn't just give it back to me herself. But that was just like Amy, a sneaky one she was but I knew she had good intentions.

"Uh...thanks" I whispered holding the textbook close to my chest. I looked everywhere but at him, because I was a coward. Scared to face the truth that I was the one to cause the distance between us. He continued looking straight at me before turning and walking away.

I never thought I had the guts to do what I did next but I went for it. I instantly wrapped my arms around his lean waist. Burying my face into his hoodie which smelt of delicious honeydew. "I know you hate me, Erin...you have every right to. I don't deserve you...I never did" I stuttered tears rising to the surface.

A large lump began to form in my throat. Silent hot tears streamed down my face as I held onto him tightly. I wasn't one to admit my faults but looking at his motionless face forced me to succumb to my true feelings. The truth was Erin and I were never meant to be together and yet we still went for it because we didn't know what could happen.

We were like two highways in opposite directions. Two people following different paths even if we had to cross each other to get to our destination. His large hands encased around mine stroking my hands lightly. I had expected a much different reaction than that.

He let out a puff of air as he turned around and pulled me lightly to his chest. "I'm exhausted," he said weakly as he hid his face between my collarbone. His warm minty breath caressed my pale neck and it sent shivers down my spine. Meanwhile, my hands awkwardly lay by my side as he embraced me.

What the hell are you waiting for?! This is your chance...show him you care...

My mind began to race and just as he was about to let go I pulled him back in tighter. Like a child, I buried my face deep in his chest and let his scent envelop me. I knew we would need to have this moment again and so I cherished it for as long as I could.

Both of us had met our wit's end. We both were tired..tired of the arguing...the being mad at one another. It truly took a lot of energy and I knew it took a lot out of Erin to feel that weight every day.

I guess that's what we needed. I suddenly felt light and airy like a weight had been lifted off my shoulders. It felt almost like a

Spring weight had finally been let go.