dear insecurities,

it's funny how certain people can distract you from pain.

it feels as if they've solved all your problems;

destroyed all your agony.

but these problems never go away,

the pain is just numbed.

when they inevitably leave you behind,

the pain become worse.

i don't want him to leave...

sincerely, dan howell (a scared boy)

when phil lester walked into the coffee shop, dan howell was already there. phil lester smiled as bright as ever at the sight of the boy. the boys mocha colored hair glowed in the light. his brown eyes emitted rays of golden sunshine. and his smile? oh that smile. it was not seen often, but when it was, the happiness was contagious.

phil lester stared at they boy.

little did he know, everytime he looked away, dan howell was staring right back.

little did he know, the smile hid his pain.

little did he know, dan howell was in crippling agony.

dan howell was not happy, but he was slowing falling in love with phil lester.