Dear Father

I don't know if I can do this. I'm getting cold feet. I don't know if I'll be able to handle this life. I don't know if I'll be a good dad. I need your help, papa.
Mom said you still didn't want to talk to me even after reading the note I sent you. How much could you hate your own son? How can you be like this?
I've lost hopes of ever talking to you again. I don't know what to do.

James