Dear Diary,
                    I can't believe that Phil asked to hang out at lunch, only to beat me up later. I hate being public spaces, due to my social anxiety, so it was bad enough having to go into the café. 
        But I did it. All because of my stupid crush. He obviously doesn't like me. I should know as much from the bullying. But in class... the way he looked at me... it seemed softer, happy.
        I felt relaxed when I was talking to him in the class, and even in the hallway where we bumped into each other.
     Although, when he was beating me up, he didn't hit as hard as he normally did. And he didn't say anything. Maybe he is trying to be nicer.
     Get your shit together Dan, he doesn't like you. Stop getting ahead of yourself like some stupid lovesick teenager. Oh wait. I am one...

Dan walked down the corridor, upset from the beating he took yesterday. He didn't expect Phil to act like that.

He opened his locker, quite forcefully after the door often being stuck due to him being slammed against it many times. Once he had opened it, a note came fluttering out.

'Weird.' He thought, as he picked up the letter.

He turned it over to read the neat handwriting on the other side.

I know times are hard for you, but I'm here, I'm watching over you. Making sure you don't get hurt. I'm sorry how much you are hurting. I can see it when you smile, it's forced. I can tell when you talk, you don't say much and you speak fast. But I am watching over you, baby boy.

Dan read the note over again, making sure he wasn't misreading it.

"Secret admirer?" A voice questioned him.

Dan turned to see someone he had never met at this school before. He smiled widely. Remembering how the letter said it was forced. He just shrugged as an answer. Not wanting to say anything he could regret.

"Hey I'm new here. I'm Danny Avidan, and you are..?" The new person said.

Dan smiled, a little happier now that he had met someone who didn't care about his pastel clothes.

"I'm Dan Howell." He replied.

The other person nodded as Dan got out the books he needed for his next lesson. He had already pocketed the note.

'Who wrote it?' He thought again as the corridor began to flood.

The sudden rush of people made him uneasy so he smiled and was about to say goodbye to the new student when Danny said something.

"Could you possibly show me to my class?" He said.

The pastel boy nodded and asked to see his new acquaintances schedule. The classes he was in were nearly the same as what Dan had and he told him as much.

"Oh nice thanks. Yay made my first friend. I like your shirt by the way." Danny said to Dan.

Dan blushed at the complement, and the fact that he was called a friend. He hadn't had one in years.

"Thanks. Erm this way." Dan said awkwardly as he lead the taller man with a fro though the school hallways.

They made their way to the first classroom, which they shared together. Once they were inside, Danny sat next to Dan and struck up a conversation.

Dan tried his best to reply from the words from his new friends mouth. Friend felt like a new concept to Dan. 

"So Dan... what was the note that made you all flustered?" Danny said.

Dans head shot up and a tint was placed upon his cheeks. Cause it his friend to laugh.

"I don't know who it was from. But whoever they are, they seem nice." Dan replied, deciding not to lie.

Danny nodded his head and thought  before speaking.

"So you gonna date them?" Danny asked.

Dan just shrugged. He had eyes on someone else. He wasn't prepared to tell anyone. Not even his only friend.

XxX

He only met Danny a few hours ago, but in that time, they had become really close friends. Dan said goodbye to his only friend a get he had dropped him off outside of his classroom.

They didn't share last lesson together today. Unfortunate for Dan,  seeing as it is the one he was dreading the most.

It was the lesson he had with his number one bully, Phil. He sat down next to the punk boy with the straightened black hair.

He became lost in his own thoughts as the teacher rambled on about the project. His mind drifting back to the letter he received earlier this morning.

Dan hadn't thought of it for most of the day, due to the fact he was hanging out with Danny. 

"I'm sorry..." Dan heard someone say to his left.

He turned to see Phil, looking at him sideways. And Dan fell in love over again. The way his eyelashes gently brushed his high cheekbones after he blinked. This beautiful sky blue eyes.

"For what?" Dan found himself whispering a reply.

Phil sighed and rubbed his face with his hand. Pushing his hair back into place.

"I'm sorry Dan, for beating you up." He said.

Dans mouth fell open in surprise. Never once had he heard of Phil apologising for beating someone up. And when someone tried to get an apology, they were either mocked or beat up again.

Through his voice and facial expression, Dan could tell he was sincere. But it still broke his heart how he had still done it.

Phil had broke his heart so many times. Everytime that Phil beat Dan up, he felt as though his heart had stopped working.

He felt broken. Often, he would feel like this until the bruises they had caused had cleared. Then once again would Dans forced happiness return. 

"From which time?" Dan asked.

That was probably the wrong thing to say to someone who could easily snap him in two. But he didn't care. 'If Phil wanted to apologise.' Dan thought. 'He can say sorry for every time he beat me.'

Phil just sighed, heavier than before and fiddled with his hands.

"From all the times. I am truly sorry Dan." He said.

"Will you ever stop though?"

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