1.
Dear Diary,

I've Been Just Told By My Crush(Evan) That He Wants To Date Me....I'm So Happy Right Now...

I Don't Even Know How To Speak....

It's So Shocking....

I'm Super Scared Though....What If He Gets Weirded Out By Me Or Worse Hates Me....

I Don't Know...

I'll Just Have To See

Sincerely,Jacob

2.

Dear Diary,

Its Me Again And Evan Is Taking Me Out On Our First Date...

It's So Exciting...

I Don't Know Where We're Going....

But I'm So Excited...

Hopefully I Don't Screw This Up

Sincerely,Jacob

3.
Dear Diary,

Sorry It's Been A While Since I've Written In Here...

But Evan Just Gave Me My First Kiss...

It Was So Romantic...

We Were Looking At The Stars And He Took My Chin Softly And Kissed Me...

That's When I Started To Realize I Love Him....

We've Never Said It But We've Been Dating For About 7 Months Now....

Evan One Day If Your Reading This...
And I've Never Got The Courage To Tell You Then...

I Love You
Sincerely,Jacob

4.

Dear Diary,

Hey Its Crazy Kid Who Likes To Be In His Diary A Lot...

Evan Always Wonders What I Write In This Book....

I'm Never Gonna Tell Him Because The Last Page I Had Was Telling Him I Love Him....

It's Been Quite A Long Time Since Then...

We've Been Dating A Year By Now....

We've Never Said The I Love Yous Yet...

I Don't Know Why But I'm To Much Of A Wuss To Tell Him How I Feel...

Anyway I Don't Know...

I'll Just End It Here

Sincerely,Jacob

5.

Dear Diary,

Something Happend....

I Don't Know What It Was But It Happend..

Me And Evan Said I Love You To Each Other....

I Haven't Talked To Evan In A About A Week So I've Been Missing Him....

We Have To Get Ready For The SAT....

It's The Most Boring Thing You Can Go Through...

At Least It Wasn't How It Was When Your Younger Especially If You Have A Creepy Teacher....

Ugh...Weird Memories Are Flowing Back...

I'm Just Gonna And The Page Here Before I Start Talking About Puberty...

Sincerely,Jacob

6.

Dear Diary,

Hey Its Me Again,Again...

I Haven't Seen Evan In A About A Month...

I Went To Go See Him

And

I Saw Him With A Girl....

I Know What You Were Thinking....

Maybe He Was With A Friend...

Would Friends Really Kiss??

I Was So Mad That I Couldn't Even Think Anymore....

I Just Left...

I Loved Evan....

I Gave Him Everything,Even My Virginity.

Sincerely,Jacob

7.

Dear Diary,

I Broke Up With Evan...

He Wasn't Worth The HeartBreak...

He Was So Confused By Why...

It Made Me So Mad That I Wanted To Punch Him...

But I Didn't...I Grew Up And Learned From Experience...

Don't Trust A Guy So Easily Or They'll Break Your Heart Trust Me...

In The Future I Wanna Get Married But How Can I Do That When Evan Was The Only One That Hanged Out With Me...

They Say That Highschool Relationships Don't Work That Long Now A Days Anyway....

Sincerely,Jacob

8.

Dear Diary,

It's Me Again,Again,AGAIN...
Hahaha

I'm Sorry For That But I Met Some Of The Coolest People...

There Was

Zoe Turner:
She's The Crazy Cat Girl...She Talks About Cats 50-50 Percent Of The Time...

William Robison:
He's The Flirstiest Guy I Know...He Flirts With All The Girls In The School...

Deatrice Humble:
She's The Student Council...Don't Get On Her Bad Side...She Can Tell Rumors About You And You'll End Up The Most Not Popular Person In The School

Tommy Ferro:
He's The Nerdist Kid In School But Still Popular Than Me...

All Of These Guys Made Me Who I Am Today...

I'm Still Standing Evan...

I'm Still Standing

Sincerely,Jacob

9.

Dear Diary,

My Family Tells Me I Should Tell My Friends That I'm Gay...

But I Don't Know Why...

Why Would It Be Their Concern....

Why Would They Have To Know...

But

I Realise Why Now...

Deanice Started To Flirt With Me Continuously...

Everyday I Would Keep Telling Her To Stop

My Friends Thought We Should Be Together...

The Next Day

I Was Sitting On My Bed And

Me And Her All Alone In The House One Day...

I Went To Go To The Bathroom When I Went Back...

I Sat Back Down And Got A Big Drink Of My Water

It Felt As If I Fell Over...

When She Sat On My Lap And Started Flirting With Me....

I Kept Telling Her No But She Continued...

I Tried To Push Her Off But My Arms
We're Getting Week...

My Vision Started To Go A Little Blurry...

I Was So Dizzy And That's All I Could Remember...

When I Woke Up.....

I Was Naked In My Bed Not Knowing What Happend...

I Felt Disgusted...
Humiliated....
Hurt.....

I Don't Know...

So Just Goodbye

Sincerely,Jacob...

10.
Dear Diary,

It's Been So Long Since I've Since I've Last Seen My Friends

Probably About A Week...

Deanice Texted Me And Said She Wanted To Meet Up...

I Decided To Go Meet Her...

I Asked Her What She Wanted From Me

I'm Very Angry At The Moment

She Showed A Pregnancy Test To Me...

It Said Plus

She Grinned....

I Felt Rage...

Sh-She Did What To Me....

I Didn't Realise Tears In My Eyes Until She Told Me...

She Laughed And Told Me That I Was Going To Be A Father...

I Didn't Want This...

None Of This...

I Got Up And Ran As Fast As I Could...

I Didn't Care Where I Was Going Just A Place Without Sounds...

I Found My Secret Hidding Spot...

I Kept Repeating To Myself Aloud That Everthings Going To Be Ok...

I Was Going To Be Ok...

Sincerely,Jacob

11.

Dear Diary,

I'm Finally Done With This....

I Told My Parents What Happend...

They Were Crying Viciously....

I Hated Having To Tell Them...

But What My Mom Said Is Nothing I'll Ever Forget....

She Told Me "Everything Will Be Fine....Trust Me...." As She Rubbed My Hair Like A Child...

I Know That Deanice Is Gonna Make Rumors About Me...

She Will...

When She Will Is My Question....

I Wanted To Call My Friends...

When I Did Offically Call My Friends...

I Group Video Called Them...

They All Accepted My Request....

We Were Talking...

But Tommy Said "Where Have You Been"

That's When I Started To Tear Up...

I Left The Chat...

I Couldn't Find The Courage To Tell Them...

When I Woke Up

I Got Messaged By The Three Of Them

William Asked If I Was Ok

Tommy Asked Where I Live So I Come See You....

Then Zoe Messaged Me Pictures And GIFS Also Stickers And Emojis Of Just Full On Cats...

I Put Them In A Group Chat And Told Them My Address To Meet Them At My House...

They Told Me They'll Be Here In A Secound...

Sincerely,Jacob

12.
Dear Diary,

When They Finally Got Here I Knew What I Had To Do...

I Have To Tell Them About Deanice...

Also I Have To Tell Them That I'm Gay...

If Just One Of Them Stays That's All I Need...

When I Finally Told Them Zoe And William Looked Grossed Out....

They Called Me A Fairy,Other Stuff Too And Then Left

I Wasn't The Happiest Right Now...

I Looked At Tommy Who Was Still Here....

I Asked Him If He Was Going To Go...

He Shook His Head...

I Told Him He Can Stay If He Wants To...

He Nodded His Head....

Sincerely,Jacob

13.

Dear Diary,

When Tommy Decided To Stay Over...

He Told Me That He'll Still Be My Friend...

I Was So Happy....I Started To Cry...

I've Never Been The Happiest...

I Know Deanice Is Gonna Do Something To Me...

She Scares Me...

But If She's Pregnant With My Kid...

I Know What's She's Going To Do....

She's Using Me For Money Even Though Her Family Is The Richest Of The Whole Town...

Or Thats At Least What People Think...

The Next Day Tommy Had To Go...

He Told Me That He Was Sorry For Me Hearing Such Horrible Things....

I Haven't Told Him About Deanice...

Tommy Won't Be Here For Long...

She'll Find Some Way To Get Tommy Against Me...

I Just Know It...

Why Does This Happen To Me...

Sincerely,Jacob

14.

Dear Diary,

This Day Was The First Day Coming Back To School Summer...

I Was So Scared Of What Deanice Was Gonna Do To Me...

Tommy Walked Me To School Today...

I Told Him What Deanice Did To Me...

He Kept Me Close To Him When We Walked In The Building...

Everyone Was Looking At Us...

I Was So Scared Of What Everyone Was Gonna Do And Say...

I Only Have Two Years Left Of Highschool....

Everyone Hates Me...

I Heard Whispers...

Probably Gossip Deanice Told...

What The Rumors Were...

I Don't Know....

I'll See You Later Diary

Sincerely,Jacob

15.

Dear Diary,

Everyone Has Been Looking At Me...

Even Evan....

Being Judgementful...

Tommy Protects Me From Bullies...

Usually Girls Will Only Bully You If You've Done Something Really Bad...

Boys And Girls Have Been Bullying Me...

I've Never Been So Scared In My Life...

Even Clowns Don't Scare Me As Much As They Used To...

My Life Has Became A Joke...

Words Upon Words Is All I Ever Hear..

I Wanna Just Take My Existence But I Just Can't...

My Friend,My Family...

I Can't Do That To Them...

My Life As Of Now...

Is That I'm The Clown And Everyones Laughing At Me...

Like As If I Got Pie Smashed In My Face...

When Being A Kid...You Get Blinded...

Blinded From The World You See.....

When My Real Father Was Around...

He Would Throw Bottles At My Head And Told Me Off...

I Wasn't Scared...

I Was Blinded And Thought That Daddy Was Just Mad Today...

My Mom Had No Idea What He Was Doing Until She Found Me With Cuts And Bruises...

My Mother To This Day Will Never Forget The Thing I Said...

"Don't Worry Mommy...Daddy Was Just Mad Today..."

I Saw My Mom Crying....

I Had No Idea Why Though...

I Was Blinded...

I Wish To Be Blinded Forever...

I'll Never See Daddy Again
Sincerely,Jacob

16.(Tommy's Diary)

Dear Diary,

I've Never Had A Diary Before...

My Father Thinks I Shouldn't Have One Only Girls Do...

That Was Wrong

Jacob Has One...I See Him Write In It All The Time...

He Seems To Be Calm When He Writes...

I Understand Why Now...

My Mom Sneaked A Diary Just For Me...
She Told Me To Keep The Key Safe..

Even Though I'll Hide The Book Because You Can Just Use A Hammer To Open It..

But

It's So Calming...
Putting Your Thoughts In This Book...

Without Keeping It To Yourself All The Time...

-

Anyway Deanice Has Been A Real Jerk To Jacob...

He Told Me The Whole Story On How She Well Raped Him...

I Hated Hearing Him Discuss All The Details...

But It's Better To Let It Out Then Keep It In...

I've Been Protecting Jacob From All These Stupid People...

Jacob Doesn't Deserve To Get Hurt...

He Deserves Hugs And Love...

Hes Told All Of Us About Evan....

Evan Hasn't Bullied Jacob Though...

He Hasn't Came Over To Bully Him Or Make Fun Of Him Online....

The Bullying Has Became So Bad That I've Had To Delete All His Accounts And Be With Him All The Time...

But I Don't Mind...

Jacob Is Sweet

Sincerely,The Man Tommy

17.(Tommy's Diary)

Dear Diary,

Jacob Hasn't Been Doing His Best In School...

He's Really Terrified To Walk To School Alone Now...

"I Won't Leave You" Is What I Have To Tell Him Everyday...

He Has Trust Issues...

When I Met Jacob He Wasn't Doing His Best Either...

But After Knowing Him For A Few Months...He Chilled Out And Was The Happiest Kid Around...

Zoe,William,Deanice,Even Evan...

Your Missing Out Knowing The Nicest Boy In The World...

You Messed Up...

Sincerely,The Lucky Tommy

18.

Dear Diary,

Tommy Has Been Writing A Lot...

It Seems That He Got Himself A Diary Too...

I Wanna Know What It Says In There So Bad But It's His Privacy...

I Understand Why He's Writing In His Diary...

He Probably Has Been Saying Bad Things About Me In There....

I've Ruined His Social Life...

None Of His Friends Like Him Anymore And It's All Of My Fault...

When Is He Gonna Leave Me...

He Should Leave Or I'll Ruin His Life More...

I Tell Him That He Can Leave If He Wants....

But He Never Does...

He Just Stays With Me...

I'm Sorry,Tommy
Sincerely,Jacob

19.

Dear Diary,

I've Been Talking To You For 2 Years Now...

I've Been Reading My Life Over And Over...

I Can't Belive I'm Only At The 17th Page...

I Haven't Been Into Writing As Much As I Am Now...

I Like Reading More...

I Read My Diary As If It Was A Fairytale...

None Of Its Real...

I Tell Myself Over And Over....

I'm Just Blinded Again...

I Wish To Be Blinded More
So I Can Forget Sadness..
Sincerely,Jacob

20.(New Kids Diary)

Dear Diary,

I've Officially Gotten To My New Home....

It Took Hours To Get Here But Still Worth It...

This Is My First Time On My Own Without My Mom....

I've Decided To Take Her Here Since They Have Better Hospitals...

My Mom Said She Always Wanted To Live Here So That's A Bonus...

Anyway I Feel Bad About Something Today...

A Brunette Boy Was Trying To Be Nice And Say Hello...

But I Walked Away...

When I Hid Behind The Wall To Check To See The Boys Emotions To See If He Was Ok...

The Some People By The Locker Started Laughing And Saying That He Was Desperate For Friend's....

He Ran Off...

I Told Them That Everyone Is Desperate For Friendship...I Called Them Jerks And Ran After Him But I Lost Him...

After School...

I Saw The Boy Again...

He Looked Like He Was Waiting For Someone...

Then A Random Black Haired Boy Popped Up Behind Him And Scared Him...

The Brunette Got Scared And Hit Black Haired Boy...

They Looked Like Good Friends...

They Then Left

I Wasn't Gonna Follow Them...

That's Creepy...

I'm Gonna End It Here

Sincerely,Jasper

21.

Dear Diary,

Today I Tried Being Nice To The New Girl...

She Seemed Shy But Still Talked To Me...

When I Was Talking To Her...

Everyone Seemed To Stare....

After She Left...

Three Boys Came Up To Me And Pushed Me Against My Locker...

They Asked Me Where's My Body Guard

They Also Asked If I Was Gonna Rape Her Like What I Did To Deanice...

Then They Kept Kneeing Me And Punching Me...

I Was So Scared...

I Rolled Myself In A Ball And Wondered Where Was Tommy...

I Knew I Had Tears In My Eyes...

They Hit Me Hard Enough To Give Me Bruises...

Then I Heard Someone Yelling And Them Running Away...

They Asked If I Was Ok...

When I Removed My Arms From My Face To See Who It Was...

It Was Evan....

He Helped Me Up And Patted My Head...

He Asked If I Was Ok...

I Nodded...

I Also Asked Why Did He Help Me...

He Shrugged And Said "Because I'm Sorry...I'm Not Asking You To Date Me Again...I Just Wanna Be Your Friend...
I'm Sorry"

"Fine But If You Hurt Me...I Will Never Forgive You Again"

He Nodded And Smiled With Tears Of Joy

Sincerely,Jacob

22.

Dear Diary,

It's Officially December...

Which Means Christmas!!!

I Invited Tommy And Jasper Also Evan...

Tommy Doesn't Know About Evan...

I've Been Hanging Out With Him And Jasper Too...

Evan And Jasper Never Met Before...

I Have To Tell Tommy That I've Been Hanging Out With Evan...

Or He'll Get Really Mad At Me...

Sincerely,Jacob

23.

Dear Diary,

Jacob Told Me That He Hangs Out With Evan And He's Inviting Him Over On Christmas Eve...

I Knew Jasper Was Coming But Not Evan...

Evan Is Gonna Steal Jacob From Me...

Wait What...

Jacob Is Just A Friend And I Don't Wanna Lose Him...

Please Don't Leave Me Jacob
Sincerely,Tommy

24.

Dear Diary,

Today I Realised That Evan And Jasper Are Coming...

Tommy Decided That He Wanted To Stay The Night...

He Also Said That He Wanted To Spend Christmas Time With Me...

I'm So Excited For Today And Tommorow...

This Will Be The First Christmas With Tommy ♡

I'm Excited...

I Got My Room Cleaned Up Before Tommy Woke Up...

When Tommy Actually Woke Up...I Was Done...

-
At The Mini Party

We Were All Sitting Down And Talking And Stuff...

When Evan Went To The Bathroom And Jasper Went To Go Get Some Snacks...

Tommy Put His Arms Around Me From Behind And Hugged Me But He Seemed He Wanted To Stay In The Position So I Let Him...

I Don't Really Know What To Think At The Moment...

Jasper Came Back First...

She Said That We Were Very Close...

When Evan Came Back In The Room We Were Playing Truth Or Dare...

Daring Each Of Us Crazy Things....

It Was Pretty Fun Until Evan And Tommy Started An Argument...

I Don't Know What They Were Arguing About...

Then Evan Said Something That Shocked Me...

"I Get That You Love Jacob...But I Don't Wanna Date Him...I Just Wanna Be Friends With Him...Nothing Else So Tell Jacob How You Feel And Get It Over With It"

After Evan Said That He Had To Go Home...

Jasper Soon Enough Got A Text From Her Mom To Tell Her To Come Home Too...

We Were Alone

I Didn't Know What To Say...

Tommy Took His Arms Off Me...

Tommy
I Don't Know What To Feel Right Now.
I Feel Confused,Happy,And Somewhat Sad...
I Don't Know Why.
Sincerely,Jacob

25.

Dear Jacob,

Jacob This Is To You...

I Don't Write Often...

I Don't Have The Guts To Say What I Feel...

I'm A Wuss...

I Love You...

Everything About You...

You See The World So Different...

So Beautiful...

It's Amazing...

I'm So Amazed By You...

I Want To Be With You...

But I Can't Bring Myself To Say It...

There's Nothing More Than Just A Few Secounds Of Being With You...

When You Read This I'll Be Gone...

I Love You,Jacob Kenmore

Sincerely,Tommy Foster

26.(End)

Dear Tommy,

I've Seen The Letter You Gave Me...

I've Been Thinking And Thinking Over And Over Again And Again...

I've Decided What I Want To Do....

I'm Gonna Give You Your Note Back And Say No...

I Can't....

Tommy I'm Sorry...

But I Have To Say No...

I Hope We Can Still Be Friends.
I'll See You Around

Sincerely,Jacob

That Was The Last Time Jacob Seen Tommy