4/17/16

Dear diary,

Apparently, near Kyungsoo, there's a great medical center, and they're taking in internships for the summer. So, I've decided that this is something I should do. Something I definitely should apply and try out for. 

I told everyone about this, to see what their reaction. Jongdae was the only one that didn't give me all of his support. He said that he was hoping for the whole summer with me, just to take me out on dates and have fun and such. I swear, right then and there, I was about to throw everything away, because this would give us so much time to be together. But as much as I wanted that,, that I desired and craved that, this internship... was something I needed to do. If I wait even more, I know that I might struggle more in the future. 

I need my parents know and everyone else who had doubted me and my aspirations that they weren't all for nothing.

Talking to him more about it, he eventually came to terms with it, saying that we'll have to skype, text, and call whenever I'm free. 

He understood me. He wanted me to pursue my dream as a psychiatrist as much as I wanted him to pursue his own dreams, no matter where it will take him. 

He'll support me whenever and wherever just as I would for him.

Just talking about this made me realize that maybe once the summer begins, I'll be seeing so little of him. Once our junior year of college comes back around, we have classes towards our majors. So even then, it might be hard to see him if we don't plan our schedules right. 

But, we'll make it work. I know we will. 

We'll have to.