1/31/16

Dear diary,

Minseok called Kyungsoo to come over.

The damn idiot actually came over while I was sleeping in the night, so to give me the wonderful wake up call at goddamn 7:30 in the morning. The boy then proceeded to boss me until I was up and ready to go.

Me going out was the last thing I wanted to do.

But... It was fine and actually nice. Kyungsoo may have dragged me around to places but not once has he questioned why I was acting the way I did. We grabbed crepes and coffee in our favorite cafe first, and then he brought me to the arcade. I get that I was being a grump at first but I slowly got into it and played every game I could with him. We then went to grab snacks from street vendors and take a walk around the neighborhood park.

I wanted to tell him about everything that happened in the past couple weeks, to rant and let everything out. But I was reluctant, because I didn't want the guy to rub in my face that he was right and that I should've listened to him.

But then he told me "I already know what's bothering you." When I asked him how he knew, he said, "Because I know you a little too well."

We stopped at a bench to sit and talk. I did end up telling him everything to the last bit of detail. He kept a straight face as I talked, taking in every little thing. Once I was done, he asked if he needs to do something about everyone who's doubting their relationship... In a very threatening tone.

This guy... I know he's not very happy with my relationship with Jongdae but then he says this shit.

I couldn't help but cry right there in the middle of the park. I'm being this angsty asshole and Kyungsoo would still try to understand and console me anyway. I don't deserve him, I don't deserve Jongin. I don't deserve all these people in my life.

He said that I should talk to Jongdae about this. That if I don't, he's going to misunderstand the situation.

I also asked him about Jongin and that if it was true that he still had feelings for me.

He changed the topic.

That's okay. I know that I need to talk to Jongin too.

When we got home, what I didn't expect was for him to give me a beautifully ribboned bag. I have him an odd look as he gestured for me to open the bag. Inside, I saw was a 48-pencil pack of prisma colors.

He told me happy early birthday, gave me a hug, and left. Inside the house, my parents and Minseok had prepared dinner with all my favorite dishes.

That's when I realized my birthday was tomorrow.

Good job me.