1/25/16

Dear diary,

I was stopped by only Seulgi today... And I swear to god, I was so close to running away when I saw her. But she caught up to me.

She had stared me down with an intense glare then told me that I should stop what I'm doing. That she is doing this for the sake of her friends. She saw the snaps that Jongin had posted on his story. Apparently they're friends.

She told me that I should just go date Jongin instead of Jongdae and everyone could be happy.

What about me though?

And Jongdae's feelings?

I told her that I didn't like Jongin, like a replayed loop on a recorder. This question comes up more than I could count, I swear.

But then she told me that he liked me. That he told her himself that he had feelings for me. That he STILL has feelings for me.

I didn't want to believe her.

Fortunately, I was able to leave without a single hair pulled and my face free from any slapping. But I already had this sick feeling in my gut. Maybe I'm still sick. But I knew that wasn't the case here.

And for some reason, I couldn't bring myself to look Jongdae in the eye all of today.