A/n: I'm updating from my phone so I can't grace y'all with gorgeous gifs of our boys. So expect some pics of them instead ;)
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12/22/15

Dear diary,

This must be a new record. Today's the third day I haven't talked and avoided Jongin and Kyungsoo. Lately, most I have done is either stay cooped up in my room, visited any of the girls' homes, or go to the neighborhood cafe. So far, I've been succeeding on not seeing or talking either of them, despite how many times Minseok have told me otherwise. Yes, I'm guilty for avoiding them. The Christmas presents I've gotten for them are just mocking me on my night stand, urging me to talk to them and patch things up.

I don't know why I'm doing this to myself and to them. I honestly shouldn't be so butt hurt over everything. They were just looking out for me, right? They didn't want their friend to be hurt in the end?

But my god, I am 19 years old. I'm already at the age most people would say I'm an adult. I just feel so babied by them! I've grown up, I've experienced things! I know how to take care of myself. If I were to get hurt, let it be. I will see for myself and learn from the experience. I'm still young enough to make mistakes... I must be late on my rebellious stage.

It's just tha-

I just got a text from Jongdae, asking if I want to hang out with him today. You know what, I'm going to take up on that offer. I'll write more later if anything happens.

I'm back! It's 7:38 right now. And lemme tell you a little something. That crush that Kyungsoo and Jongin are telling me to stop having... It's not going to happen.

I wasn't expecting today to just be the two of us, but... It was just perfect. Jongdae and I don't get much opportunities to just hang out just by ourselves, but he doesn't fail to disappoint. We decided to swing by the mall. I didn't really get anything but just window shopping, trying on ridiculous clothes, snacking and drinking from Starbucks, talking about whatever comes to mind... It wasn't something I'd usually do every time I go to the mall. And most times, trips to the mall end up boring, but not with Jongdae. He made sure to always make things interesting.

God, I like him so much.