12/17/15

Dear diary,

Let me say first that STAR WARS THE FORCE AWAKENS WAS AMAZING!! I'll definitely have to drag oppa to see it when he's free, I just KNOW he's going to love it!

But, surprise, surprise, that wasn't the only thing that happened earlier. So here I am, right after the movie to write about it.

Okay, so a couple hours before the midnight premiere of the movie, we had all planned that we all meet as soon as possible. So, Jongin and I were all bundled up in Star Wars merch and we left together to the movie theater to meet up with Jongdae and Wendy. The line was already forming at the door but to our surprise, we see Jongdae in his Darth Vader hoodie, saving us spots in line. It was a weird meeting. Why? Because Wendy was no where in sight and Jongdae wasn't expecting to see Jongin with me.

He said that Wendy had to cancel in the last minute. But he then asked me why Jongin was here... Which, I did mention, was rude, as Jongin was seriously right there when he asked that. Did I not tell Jongdae that Jongin was coming? Apparently not.

I told Jongdae that Jongin was as big of a Star Wars fan as he was and that the two of us had already planned to come to the premiere together. I stressed out that it'd be absurd if I didn't watch it with Jongin as the two of us had marathoned all of the Star Wars movies this week.

I don't know why, but it didn't look like Jongdae liked it. Now that I think of it, Jongdae and I would've been by ourselves.... Ahhh, just me and my crush?? Watching a movie??? Together???? My heart still skips a beat every time I think of it. But it's no matter now, Jongin was a part of this too. Sorry friend for nearly kicking you out so Jongdae and I could hang together...

So once they open the doors, we got our tickets and snacks and go get decent seats in the theater, with me in the middle. And here came the weird conversation while the movie was showing credits.

Jongin had his arm hanging on the back of my seat, which was normal. I've been used that since high school, but Jongdae had to take it a different direction. And I quote "Hah, you know, have people ever mistaken you two as a couple before?"

Jongin, to my surprise, was quick to reply that the two of us, have in fact, dated before. I noticed the interesting expression on Jongdae's face right then and there, but had wiped it away with a smile... But I noticed. Maybe I'm spitballing here, but he looked... Peeved off. Jealous? Before I could ask him about it, the movie was starting.

Maybe I'm overthinking it. Because Jongdae knows Jongin is a close friend and that's it. There's no point for Jongdae to be jealous about our friendship.

Nonetheless, the three of us enjoyed the movie. Laughing and crying. I was definitely an emotional mess at Han Solo and Kylo Ren's scene. I was crying so much that I had to turn to Jongin and cry into his shoulder so I wouldn't make too much noise in the theater.

It wasn't until after the movie and Jongdae and Jongin and I had to separate ways for home until Jongin told me about the glare Jongdae gave him while I cried into him. Like wtf? Why? But then Jongin said words that I didn't want him to say.

He said that Kyungsoo was right. He was getting bad vibes from Jongdae and would prefer it if I didn't hang out with him anymore. I was quiet the rest of the walk home.

Okay Jongin, just try to tell my stupid heart that. I don't think I'd be able to stop hanging out with him, even though it hurts.