'Dear diary...

It didn't go so well... I ruined it again. I prepared so well, I had everything ready. all i had to do was follow the script.. but... He did not follow, Hoseok did not follow the script! Why didn't he follow my predictions, everything went downhill. I didn't know what to say, he kept asking about me, i don't want to talk about myself. Talking about myself doesn't interest anyone, people don't like me, so talking about myself wont work, i tried to avoid it but he kept asking. I.. I panicked, my diary.

I caused him to leave earlier than we agreed on. see no one likes me, no matter how much i try, i bet he doesn't want to see me ever again. Just like the others.

But wait.

no, diary no, im wrong.. Hoseok was the one that contacted ME, not the other way around, he texted me first. He WANTED to see me. He was happy to see me.

I can't give up, I have to talk to him and apologize. I have to make it right again, he will understand right? he always used to understand, i can make him understand again right?

yes, yes. I can't make him leave.

He can't leave me already.

no, I won't let him.

I can do this diary, wish me luck! I'm going to make a friend, and we will be the best friends ever, like soulmates! We are going to have fun just like others. i don't know what we will do yet but it has to be fun. movies, movies are fun right? Okay, we will go to the movies. Yes, yes.

I will be a better person and not let anyone give up on me anymore, if they won't stay with me I will make them stay.

Thank you for listening my sweet diary, talk to you later!

My friend, my diary'