'dear diary,

I don't feel so well.... I'm not sick, I am healthy. I just don't feel good, it feels as if I'm so sick, but at the same time I don't feel anything at all. I just feel... miserable.

and to top it off i lied to Hoseok why i was not there at our meeting spot. I couldn't tell him people made fun of me and I screamed at them. So I lied and apologized. but now i feel so bad. Why did I lie? Why do I lie so much? Am I really such a bad person...

Maybe not others but me myself is the selfish lying asshole. Maybe it was me who was a bad friend?

Ugh, my head hurts diary. I don't like thinking about these things. But I can't help it. Ive changed so many times yet people always still leave. It has to do something with me right? but, there is nothing else to change... Ive changed clothes, hair, personality, likes dislikes, my voice my attitude... what else is there to change.

Hoseok won't be any different. He will leave me too... one day he will leave me. just like everyone else, and i will be left alone. Was it meant to be? Was I meant to be alone forever?

maybe i wasn't meant to be here at all, maybe i was a mistake? maybe that's why i can't make friends, i don't belong here...

No, no Jimin, don't think about those things. Yes, I just have to keep holding on. I have to keep Hoseok close. He can't leave me like them. i will make it up to him

he can NOT LEAVE ME

goodnight,

my friend my diary'

Jungkook put the paper down when his office door opened and Taehyung walked in with an odd expression on his face.

"What's up with you?" he asked.

"They found Mr Jung Hoseok, and he has a lot about Jimin. They are currently questioning him"

"I see, I think his story will reveal a lot that Jimin has not written in these.