Dear Diary

Letting go of something is the hardest thing to do, but not doing it is the hardest.

Why does everyone lie to you? Is it to make themselves feel better that the person your lying to believes you? Or is it because they want to see how you act when you find out the truth?

"Best friends forever no matter what"

Where is the truth in this sentence? Why doesn't this make me happy anymore?

I'm so broken that I even have trouble trusting people now, well who would blame me? I've been betrayed by my friends and betrayed by the ones I love.

I'm broken inside and outside except no one notices the pain behind the mask of a fake smile.

Maybe if I, for once, let them see the true me and maybe I could end my pain a suffering, maybe.

Or I could get more hated, because being real gets you hated!

This world is a horrible place to be I just wish I could go somewhere else, away from my pain and suffering.

Away from the tormenters
Away from her boyfriend the ring leader
Away from her
And most importantly away from the ones who have betrayed me and my trust.

Did I mention that I finally told her about the things he does without her and that he is cheating on her?

Yeah I did and just like I said before she flipped saying "I'm jealous" "your the worst friend ever" "why are you saying this are you not my friend!" "I hate you just leave me and him alone!" And while she walked away. I wish I could have just left it be and just leave her alone with thinking that I'm a good friend.

I'm still a goo friend right? Telling her was for the best right?

If so why do I feel so broken up inside?

Some people hide and cry I guess I'm one of those people, but there's a difference between them and me. While they cry and hide, I cry and wish I could die.

Sorry dear diary

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