Waking up this morning was more stressful than usual. I've been nervous for days knowing that today that we go back to school I may see Soobin, and even worse... Maybe I will see him with her, and I don't know if I'm ready.

I tie my hair up into a bun as I keep walking as slow as possible towards the campus. Jihoon offered to pick me up and walk with me, but I politely declined because I have too many things in my mind I just wanted to be alone and try to relax. He's been the best boyfriend I could ever ask for, I can't complain at all. Basically, he's been perfect. He is sweet, caring, loving, warm, and understanding. Whenever we're together, I rarely think about Soobin, but every time I do, I feel terribly guilty. I never told him that Soobin called me the other night, he probably felt suspicious because I didn't sleep well and I was a little down the next day, however he didn't pressure me to talk and I thank him for that.

The cold breeze hits against my exposed skin, but my shivers this time aren't because of the weather, but because of my nervousness. Why do I feel like this? My hands are shaking and sweating, and I could swear I'm about to vomit any time soon when I stand in front of the door. I take a deep breath, squeezing my eyes shut as I slowly exhale.

I'm being dumb, there's nothing to worry about.

As soon as I enter the building, I feel more at ease seeing there isn't so many people. I walk towards my locker, grabbing my books when I suddenly feel a pair of arms around my waist, startling me. I turn my head quickly and see Jihoon, with a worried smile on his face. "Are you okay?" He asks, looking at me. I sigh.

"You scared me, dummy." I chuckle, turning my body to finally face him. I wrap my arms around his neck, admiring his gorgeous face staring back at me.

"I'm sorry." He responds, pulling his lip out in a pout and caressing my cheek with his finger. His eyes look so bright it melts my heart completely.

I stand on my tiptoes and place a long lasting peck on his lips, making him smile shyly. I giggle and wrap him in a tight hug, resting my cheek on his shoulders. He holds me tight against him, rubbing my back and rocking us slightly side to side.

"It's okay." I mutter, smiling and feeling safe between his arms.

"I love it when you get clingy." He says, making me pull back and cock a brow at him. He chuckles, squishing my cheeks with his hand. "Cutie."

I pull back from his grasp, trying to hold back my smile.

"Excuse me? Okay, I won't be like this anymore." I tease, pulling away and turning my body to walk away. He giggles, extending his hand and wrapping it around my wrist, turning my body in a quick move and pulling me into him. He cups my face with his hand and places a soft kiss on my lips. I laugh when we pull back, ruffling his soft locks with my hand. "That's what I thought."

"Isn't it too early for you guys to be so cheesy?" Suri's voice resonates behind us. I turn my head and look at her with a smile, she steps closer to us with Yeonjun and Gigi.

"Says the girl who wants to be over Yeonjun 24/7? Or says "I miss Yeonjun." "I want his kisses." "y/n, I miss my baby." "Yeonjun is so hot." "Can you believe how badly I want him to smash me against the wall?" " I strike back teasingly. Yeonjun raises his eyebrows and widens his eyes, letting out a husky chuckle right after.

"Okay, let's stop exposing each other." Suri says, lifting her hands in surrender. Yeonjun keeps chuckling, then showers her cheek with kisses, making her giggle.

"Good morning Gigi. Are you excited for your first day?" I ask her, grabbing her hands and smiling warmly. She smiles back, nodding. Her cheeks are tinted with pink, and looks away when Jihoon and her lock eyes.

"Yes, I have classes right now. I'll see you around, Unnie." She says, bowing at us and walking away quickly.

I frown, confused by her behavior.

"Is she okay?" I ask, Suri shrugs.

"I guess she's just nervous."

"Well, we better go to class as well." Jihoon says, grabbing my hand.

I nod.

"Yes, we're running late." I respond, waving at my friends. "I'll see you later."

They wave back at us and we part ways. Jihoon walks me to my classroom, but this time we don't seem to have any classes together. I feel a knot on my stomach as soon as I open the door, but then Jihoon places his hand over mine on the doorknob, making me turn and look at him.

He smiles, placing a kiss on my forehead.

"It'll be okay." He whispers, as if he could read my mind. I smile at him and nod, kissing him on the cheek and slowly entering the room.

However, it doesn't take long for my fears to become a reality. I spot Soobin in the corner, resting his arms on his desk. He's spacing out, with his earphones on as he probably drifts away. I swallow hard and take a seat close to the door, hoping he didn't see me.

I sigh, trying to distract myself and relax. I grab my stuff and place them on my desk, getting ready for the class to start. I feel someone staring at me, and I turn my head to see it's Soobin. My stomach flips when he gives me a light smile, which I return before I look away. My heart races and I want to slap myself for it.

The door swings open and everything turns to dark when I see her entering the classroom. Walking like a princess she goes straight towards Soobin with a smirk on her face. She stands in front of his desk, he looks up to her, taking his airpods off. I can't help but look at them, she keeps smiling and talking to him, but even though he doesn't smile back, she suddenly cups his face and places a kiss on his lips, making my heart sink.

I quickly turn my face, squeezing my eyes shut once again as I feel my world crashing down right here. I knew this could happen, but I didn't really think it would.

He said he still loved her, I should've seen this coming. I have no right to feel bad about this. But it hurts a lot more than I thought.

I bite my lip and start fidgeting my fingers over my desk, with a knot on my throat that makes it really hard for me to breathe. I decide to avoid looking at them, and try my best to ignore what I just witnessed.

The classes have already ended, and I can finally breathe. It was too uncomfortable and painful being in the same room with Soobin and that girl. He kept staring at me, sometimes even tried to capture my attention but I refused to look back, I just ignored him the best that I could.

I walk out of the restroom where I just fixed my hair and washed my face and make my way towards the cafeteria. I'm about to open the door when Someone grabs my wrist and drags me into an empty classroom. I hear the door slamming, a pair of hands pushes me against the wall, making my back hit on it. Fortunately for me, it wasn't hard enough to hurt me.

"What the fuck?" I exclaim, but everything happens too quick and the next thing I see is Soobin's face inches apart from mine. "Soobin?" I ask, frowning in confusion as my heart is about to jump out of my chest.

He holds my arms gently, looking me in the eyes. He isn't close enough to kiss, but he isn't far enough for me to escape.

"Why do you keep avoiding me?" He asks, his thick voice sending chills all over my body. "What did I do?"

He looks at me with a pained expression, and I instantly feel the urge to hold him tight. But still, I can't.

"I'm not avoiding you." I lie, grabbing his forearms as I try to release myself.

He frowns.

"Yes, you are."

I sigh, with a heavy heart. He makes it even harder for me to pretend that I don't care about this whole situation.

But the show must go on.

"I'm not, I've just been busy with my boyfriend."

He looks at me with a blank expression, releasing the grip on my arms and pulling back without breaking eye contact. His gaze is burning into my soul, an unreadable expression filled with a mixture of confusion and disappointment.

"I... Your boyfriend?" He asks, confused.

I nod, feeling my heart sink all over again with the look on his face. Why are you looking at me like that? Why do you care so much?

"Yes. Jihoon is my boyfriend." I respond, forcing a smile "You were right, he was in love with me."

He doesn't seem to know what to say, so he just smiles. However, his smile doesn't look authentic.

"Oh... I told you." He responds, rubbing the back of his neck as a nervous chuckle slips out of his lips. "I didn't know you started dating. Congratulations. I-Um... You deserve to be happy." He says in a low tone, not looking into my eyes anymore.

"Thank you." I mutter. "That's why I haven't been around, I'm sorry if you took it personal."

He nods.

"Yeah, I understand."

I fake a smile, feeling a stinging pain in my heart.

"Yeah, you don't have to worry about me anymore. You can now focus on your girl."

What the fuck did I just say.

He frowns, tilting his head.

"What? My girl?" He asks. "You mean Gyuri?"

I nod.

"Yeah. I saw you two this morning. I'm happy for you, though, I know how much you wanted her back." I say, placing my hand on his shoulder, instantly regretting my action when I notice that touching him doesn't burn as much as his stare on me. "I just hope she loves you right this time." I whisper, turning around to leave the room. I know if I keep going, my voice is going to crack and I'm going to cry like a baby.

"y/n, she's-"

"The love of your life, I know. Be happy Soobin, I'll see you around." I interrupt him, opening the door. I smile again at him and exit the room before he can say anything else.

I keep walking as I try with all my might to hold back my tears, knowing that I acted like a complete idiot and my jealousy was more than evident. I just keep breaking down any time he comes around. No matter how hard I try to free myself from him, I just can't.

It doesn't even matter if he's around or if he's absent. He keeps haunting me, and I don't know what to do anymore about it.

As if the previous conversation with Soobin that seemed more like a goodbye wasn't enough, another hand wraps around my wrist and stops me. I turn my head, now exasperated because all I want is to distract myself, when I see her face in front of me.

She frowns, looking at me with disgust.

"What?" I ask, annoyed. Why would she want to talk to me? She already got what she wanted.

"Listen here, you little brat." She begins. "I know Soobin spent a lot of time with you when we broke up, but now I'm back and I don't want you to be near him."

I pull my hand away from her hand, and let out a sarcastic laugh.

"Excuse me, who are you again?"

She smirks.

"You know exactly who I am. Soobin is mine, he loves me and only me, so fuck off."

I sigh.

"Listen here, you snake." I mock her. "Soobin isn't an object you can claim as yours. He will be with whoever he wants wherever he wants whenever he wants, and as far as I can remember, you were the one who dumped him." I continue, walking around her as I scan her with my eyes from up to down. "Anyways, just want you to know that to me your opinion, threats, or anything about you is completely irrelevant, so if you excuse me, I have better things to do than wasting my time with you." I spit, feeling my blood boiling. She grabs my wrist again when I'm about to leave, stopping me.

"I'm not joking little bitch, stay away."

I smack her hand away.

"Even if I stay away, he will know where to find me. And let me tell you, I don't care about what you do, but if you hurt him again, I'll rip your hair off from your head with my own hands." I say angrily, but with my voice calm and my expresion stone cold. She stares at me, and I know for a fact that her blood is boiling in her veins, but I don't mind. "What do you care, anyways? Why did you come back? Did you get bored of your new boyfriend already? Or maybe he was the one who realized how much of a bitch you are and dumped you so you had to crawl back to the one real thing you've ever known? After all you've done to him, humilliating him, slapping him in front of everyone, making him feel unworthy and unwanted, rejecting him... Something happens with your new toy and you can't stand being alone just like you deserve, so you try to get back the old used toy you supposedly love at this point. I see, taking adventage of someone with such a pure love must be an exciting experience for a whore like you."

Anger takes over her after eveything I say. She lifts her hand and moves it fast to slap my face, but someone grabs her wrist and stops her midway.

"What are you doing?" He asks firmly, frowning at her and holding her wrist tightly. His voice shatters my soul in pieces. I'm too tired of this whole thing and I just want to go away.

"She insulted me!" She whines. I roll my eyes and he releases her hand abruptly before he looks at me, as if he wanted me to tell my side of the story.

I sigh.

"I did. But that was because she came here to attack me in the first place with her stupid threats, but whatever. Ask her yourself, Soobin. It's up to you whether you believe me or not."

With that being said, I turn on my heels, walking away and entering the cafeteria, leaving them behind. I know I'm distancing myself from Soobin, but she doesn't need to know that, I would never let her think that she has power over me. All I know is I can't stand her, and now all I can feel is anger mixed with frustration. I don't regret what I said, I could've said a lot more. I know I love him, but I need him to set me free.

I spot Jihoon sitting with Yeonjun in some empty table at the cafeteria. I drag my feet until I reach them, taking a seat next to him. He turns his face and smiles warmly at me, but all I do in response is wrap my arms around his neck and hug him tightly. He hugs me back instantly, wrapping his arm around my waist and kissing my neck.

"Are you okay, baby?" He whispers against my ear. I nod, tightening the embrace. "You're so sweet today aren't you?" He chuckles.

I turn my face a little and place a soft kiss on his jaw, burying my face in his neck. My heart is hurting and I'm exhausted, but at least... I have him.

When will this end?

Soobin's POV:

"What was all that about, Gyuri? Do you have to keep making scenes in front of everyone?" I ask, clenching my jaw in annoyance. I've had enough today to deal with this as well. It's like I've been starting to see some things I didn't want to see before, and It's frustrating me in so many levels.

"So now it's my fault? That's because you didn't hear what she said to me! You didn't say anything to her... I'm your girlfriend and you should be on my side!" She raises her voice in frustration, turning her hands into fists as she looks at me with pain in her eyes.

"You're not my girlfriend." I state. "I did let it be when you stole that kiss from me this morning, but don't mix things up. Besides, I know perfectly how much you despise her since that stupid game at the party, I know you, Gyuri."

She bites her lip, tears forming in her eyes as she tugs on my sleeve.

"Baby, don't say that." She pleads. "You said you loved me and wanted me back. I realized my mistake, my love, there's no one else like you-" She adds, her voice cracking as she cups my cheek with her palm.

I grab her hand and pull it away from my face, looking at her dead in the eye.

"Now you realize how much I've loved you? So suddenly? Why? Because I stopped calling? Because I stopped crying? Because I stopped caring? Or maybe because... You felt that you were losing the idiot who was always waiting for you to turn around? Just because I started to spend time with someone who didn't turn her back on me even when I asked her to? Yes, I've loved you more than I've loved myself, and that's why I begged you to stay with me. But you broke up with me to be with someone else, did you forget? Cause doll, I didn't."

She keeps silent, tears streaming down her face. I shake my head and walk away.

When did all of this turn into a mess?