2 February, 2007

Dear diary,
Life is a disaster. And now I hate it. She told me yesterday, that she likes someone else. And the funniest part is the boy, huh none other than my own friend. He was visiting in my house almost everyday. I thought for seeing that stupid video games that I have. But no, he was stealing my girl. In front of my eyes, and I duffer never saw. should I angry with myself. Or my destiny? The life sucks. Everything sucks. I can't take breath properly, diary. Where all oxygen had gone?. Now she will talk with him, smile at him.. May be may be... She will kiss him. No.. Please no. Why can't the world stop existing? Or why can't I stop living?
Disaster..

I shut my eyes. the tears I holding so many days was racing down. I knew how it feels. Digonto told me about his love almost 2 months ago. Should I deserve it. Should I deserve this pain?. Yeah obviously. Cause may be I don't deserve him. I had some casual boyfriends before. But none of them were serious. The only person I ever love, loves someone else. True, this world shouldn't exist.