Diary, this is digonto's diary?

I used to give him surprise birthday parties.

We usually used to go prom together.

My first boyfriend was his best friend. Oh God...

2008 I had gone parish for graduation.....

And and..... That was the time when I finally understood my feelings.

Oh God. I took forever to understand..... Shit shit shit. But he said he had a girlfriend. No his exact word was 'I love someone else.' Was that me!?

Then why the hell he never said it..? Did he t..thought I would have any problem about his eye sight!? Why!?? Oh God how could I never understand that!? And I prefer myself as his best friend!!!??

And finally my legs gave away and I found myself over the floor. Soon two tensed woman came near me. "What happened!? Why are you crying? Anu say something"

"Diggi.... Diggi loves me mamma"

"What!" Now this was coming only  from my mother. Because the other woman was as composed as ice.

"You knew?" I asked. It was too overwhelmed.

"Ever since he start breathing, I'm his mother. Shouldn't I see the depth in my son's eyes"

"And you didn't say me anything. Why? I thought you was like a mother to me"

"It's his wish. "

His bloody wish. "Where is he now?. Already left the city!?" My mocking voice was so sharp. You can't blame me. My best friend loved me. And he never said it..

"No idea. He left yesterday with out any things. Don't know where he is now."

For one second I thought, may be I knew where he could be? I started to walk toward the door but a determined hand of my mother stopped me. "It's your wedding, Anamika"