23/09/2018
3:05 a.m.

Dear Diary,
It has been so long...
My life has been crazy. Jacob sometimes demonstrates interest and sometimes he doesn't.. What I do? I talked to him about this and he says everything is fine.. He is just busy! But few days ago I found something. Something that destroyed me.

I was looking at my account on Twitter and decided to look at the persons Jacob follows. I was bored. I found this girl. Her name is Alexa. I know her since we where kids, it's been so long since I don't talk to her but she studies in the same university as mine.

I click on her profile and the first thing I see is the header. A picture of Jacob as the header.

I am so confused honestly..

What does this mean?

I really wanted to text her but it has been so freaking long that it is going to be so obvious if I ask her.

What do I do?

I immediately texted him
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From: me
"We need to talk"
"And it has to be on a phone call."

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I called my best friend after a few minutes. I was scared, ashamed, anxious, angry, frustrated. I had so many emotions going on in my head. Developing every second that passed.

How could he ever do this to me?

There is no reason for a girl to put a picture of a boy in her profile if he isn't anything with her.

But he is talking to me.. how can a girl have that??

Is he talking to two girls at the same time??

What the actual fuck is going on??

So that's why he has been distant?

I trusted him...

As soon as my best friend answered my FaceTime she knew something was wrong.

"What did the dumbass do?"

I immediately send a screenshot of her profile and when she saw it she opened her eyes and screamed.

"What is this? How could he?"

I started crying.

And we talked so many things and I stayed crying.

Two hours passed after we hang up.

I stopped crying.
I was angry.
I am angry.
I am frustrated.
I am confused.
I am anxious.
I am ashamed.
I am destroyed because it's the first time I discover something like that.

Half an hour passed.

He called.