P-O-L-I-C-E

do you think that's what I am?
Is that a term to describe me?
Because my mama took it so far as to get some girl arrested for sending my nudes to the school?
Do you think that's what I am?

Am I being stereotyped to that one term?
Am I being called that way because I get angry and can't stand up for myself?
Am I being related to that term for a reason?
Or are you just jealous of me?

J-E-A-L-O-U-S

I hear that term a lot, especially from my mom.
'They're just jealous of you, it's gonna be fine, I can kick their ass if you want sweetie,'
He's jealous of me, She's jealous of me
Why though?

My skills? Academic record?
Because I'm in honors and halfway done with high school by my eleventh year?
Because I'm a 5"0 female that wears glasses?
Because I'm smart?

H-U-M-A-N

I'm a human.
Capable of feeling emotions.
Capable of being happy.
Capable of being hurt.

I'm also capable to be held back for things
I don't always get what I choose, I work for it.
I work for grades. Technology. To be kind in general
I'm only human, I'm not a superhero.

So why do you think I get upset at certain words?
Over sensitive? Crybaby? Police? Run crying home to your mama?
Why do you think I leave things that'll make me hurt a person?
So I don't get hurt and they don't get hurt

If I stayed in that classroom he'd be against the wall
If I stayed in that classroom he'd be beaten and bruised
If I stayed in that classroom the actual police would've been involved
If I stayed in that classroom he'd be on the ground
So I left

I left to keep him from being hurt by me
From being hurt by my anger
This can't be fixed with an apology or moving to a different seat
When I'm done with this class I never want to see him again. And now that my brother is gone I'll fight my own battles my way.
Starting with this one and the way I handled it was embarrassing.

I slammed the door, got up and left
I walked angrily towards an administrator
I went to my safe place with my favorite English Teacher
I'm embarrassed by the way the situation ended
Just how he must feel inside